Stop the thoughts

For the next few days, we talk casually and we even go on walks and bike rides on a daily basis after school. Since she only lived one house up from mine, it was pretty easy to contact each other or do special things such as that. They were always the highlight of my day. Always what made the worst days, better than ever. I loved them. Then, one morning before 1st period at school, she stops by my locker as I'm about to open it. "Hey, I don't think this is going to work out." I don't understand. In my mind, I try to comprehend what she is saying and I say "ok." on the brink of tears. Everything after that suddenly became increasingly difficult. I couldn't believe it. After 4 long years of waiting. After looking up the street when I took the garbage out, just to see if she was outside. Now, all the mistakes I made come billowing into my mind. The rest of my classes become torture as the teachers tell me "KADEN! Pay attention!", and "KADEN! Stop zoning out!" And countless others. My 2nd period class becomes even worse. With my next teacher, he was constantly asking me if I was alright and every time I responded with "yes." yet I never felt more broken.