Is it Finally Our Time? {SLOW UPDATES}

Chapter 5

As we ride to the movies I look out the window and reflect on these last few months. Ive made alot of changes in my life. Major life changes. I Moved from L.A to Cincinatti. Broke up with my boyfriend of almost 4 years, and quit the La Rams cheerleaders. It's not what I thought would happen in 2021 but it did. So yeah.

I look out the window and see the sun just beginning to set. The orange,pink and yellow melt into each other across the sky. The sun went from bright yellow and being high in the sky to a reddish orange and slowly falling. With Brent Faiyaz's voice playing in the background, I feel relax and at ease right now. 

All of a sudden I get a sudden chill thoughout my body. I Cross my arms and rub my palms up and down my arms. Out the corner of my eye I notice Ja'marr's head has turned towards me. I remain looking out the window and avoid making eye contact with him. 

it's not that I'm trying to ignore him but when I'm around him, my mind goes somewhere else. I can't think striaght and I always end up making an ass out of myself. 

"are you cold ma,?" He asks me. I can hear his accent coming out strongly. And he called me ma! Yall already know how I feel about that word. I've never been so happy i'm not facing him right now. If I wasn't so dark,I'd look like a tomato. 

"Aaliyah?" he asks softly. I let out a breath before turning my head. 

"yea sorry. I kinda spaced out." I say staring at anything but his eyes. Once we stop at a red light, he reaches in the back seat and pulls out a light blue sweat-jacket. 

"here put this on." He says handing it to me. "ion want you to turn into an ice sickle on me." He says before continuing to drive. I giggle slightly.

"thanks." I say before putting it on. It smells like cimmimon and mint. Just like him. It doesn't quite fit me because he's hella bigger than me but so be it. 

"no problem. We should be their soon." he informs me. I nod my head and go back to looking out the window at the sunset. 

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no more than ten minutes later we arrive at the movies. Ja'marr hops out the car and runs over to my side of the car. He opens the door once again. I unzip his sweatjacket from my body and put in the seat I was once sitting in. 

"you sure you don't wanna keep it? The movies are always cold." He informs me. I nod and pick it up from my seat. He closes the door and we walk into the building. Once again,like the gentleman he is,he opens the door for me. 

"any idea on what you want to see?" He asks me once he joins my side. I shake my head. He squints his eyes at me. He places his hand on my shoulder causing me to stop walking. 

"you ight?" He asks  searching for an answer in my eyes. I try to look away from his but i cant. I nod my head. He shakes his. 

"use your words." He says softly. 

"yea..." I say softly looking away from him. His fingers go under my chin and lift my face up so I'm staring at him. He stares at my eyes for a moment. Butterflies erupt in my stomach. My heart is beating at a million miles per second. His hand leaves my chin and goes to the side of my face. His thumb caress my cheek slowly. 

"are you sure,ma?" he says me quietly,never looking away from my  eyes. 

"n-no". I say,not looking away from his. He removes his hand from my cheek,leaving it cold. He grabs my hand and pulls me to a near by bench. His thumb rubs over my hand. 

"whats going on?" he asks me.

"Is this a date?" I ask him looking down at my feet. 

"do you want it to be?" He asks me ,still caressing my back hand. 

"I don't know." If I say yes then we'll be on a date and that could lead to a relationship,which could be a bad thing. If I say no then we'll be just friends but I know that in my heart i'll want us to be more. 

"I like being around you,talking to you and just knowing your around puts my mind at ease." He reveals. "Ive had shitty dates in the past and I don't tonight to be one of them." He says. 

"my last relationship was all types of toxic and in some ways abusive." I confess causing him to hold my hand a bit tighter. "I'm just more concious of men now. Which is why i've been so stand offish tonight." I say finally looking at him. "im sorry" I mutter under my breath,slightly embarrased. 

"I don't know what he did to you,but I'm not him." He says still looking at my eyes. "how about tonight you let me prove it to you." He says. I let out a shaky breath taking his words in acount.

He's right.He's not Jalen and I need to remember that and not compare the two. 

"ok." I say softly. 

"ok?" He says. I nod and smile. He interlocks our fingers and we rise from the bench.

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unedited.

told yall I had another chapter!!

I pre wrote chapters back when I was constantly writing this book and this is the last pre-written on. So Yall gone have to bare with me fr this time. 

~Z