~What's happening?~ Noco fanfic

Cody pov:

When I saw Noah grabbing the knife and then stabbing himself I yelled and ran up to him. I actually didn't go upstairs but I hid behind the stairs, his sister, Natalie did the same. When we both saw it we ran to to him together with his dad who just walked into the house. The smell of wine were coming from his dad but he didn't seem to be drunk.
-OH GOSH! NATALIE CALL THE AMBULANCE! CODY STOP THE BLEEDING WITH IT- His father yelled as he handed me his jacket to stop the blood. I held Noah's dad jacket to the wound trying not to move the knife, knowing it is stopping the blood too but Noah already moved it a little so the wound is still bleeding. I felt myself getting weaker as I looked at Noah getting more pale. I was praying for him to make it out alive as I felt tears falling down my cheeks. I knew that Oliver is there, upstairs, knowing nothing as he is watching something on his ipad with headphones.
-WHAT DID YOU DO TO HIM MIRIAM?!- his dad yelled to his mother
-He did it himself- she seemed to be not  moved by the fact that her son just stabbed himself infront of her and because of her! She is a true monster!
-You are a monster!- The dad yelled again as we heard the sirens of ambulance. After a little break he continued -I want a divorce. And you are moving away.- he said in a shaky voice. The woman started screaming and walked towards Noah, surely wanting to do something but then the dad stopped her. We heard another sirens as we saw two colors outside the windows, red and blue. The Police officers walked in and behind them the ambulance staff. The officers handcuffed the mom. I don't remember much from the moment when they took Noah. I just felt myself getting weak too as I lost my vision, propably fainted. After some time I woke up in the hospital too, where Oliver were standing next to me.
-Agh! What happend?- I asked him quickly as I sat down on a hospital bed. He just hugged me and started crying. I felt so bad -hey... calm down... I am here now- I petted his head.
-I thought you were dead like Noah...- I felt tears falling down my cheeks as he said it
-w...w...what do you m...m...mean by this? I...Is he d...dead?!- I felt a sharp pain in my chest, like my heart actually broke, I didn't know why I felt it, I did not even like him that much
-I heard the doctors saying his dad his heart stopped beating...-Oliver answered me. I quickly stood up, still feeling a little weak
-Can you please show me where Noah is?- He noded and leaded me into the room he was in. I rushed into the room as I saw his sister and dad sitting next to him, crying ,I started to cry to, just seeing him, laying there with the slow beebs in the backgrounď. Atleast he is alive but at what cost. A true monster could do it to their child, making them stabbing themself to proof that they are not a failure
-may I... stay alone with him for a moment...?- I asked with shaky voice. His dad and sister noded and left the room as I sat next to Noah, looking at him.
-Please make it out alive Noah... I have no idea what this feeling is but I feel something towards you... I can't just loose you, not now. You are not a failure, you are so strong, you've been throught a lot in your life and you still can see the positives about it... Just please, make it out alive, I....- I looked around as more tears came into my eyes- I... I love you Noah....-I started crying even more. Have I fallen for him? And I realized it when he was there, laying, almost dying from the stabbing? Why now? Why am I feeling this? A guy shouldn't feel this way to another guy, I am not homophobic or anything but.... I am not gay, I had a girlfriend and I loved her.... but not like Noah, the love to him is... something different, something that I've never felt before. It is not friendship.... but also not the kind of love I felt before. This is not the "damn he is so hot, I want to kiss with him so fucking bad!" no.... this is the "I want to spend every single minute of my life with him, just talking and holding hands" kind of love... I want to hug him and never let go. Why? Why am I feeling this? I like the feeling but... I don't.... ehhhhhh, I just wish for him to wake up soon. I want to tell him my feelings, I hope he will not reject me...

After this thinking I left the room and took Oliver home, I mean our home, we couldn't stay at Noah's anymore. I visited Noah everyday, just like his friends and some other people, like teacher who was like mother he never really had for him, or even other bullies... they felt bad for him? That is something new. But also another thing changed for worse, the girl Sierra... Her stalking got worse, her blog started to be only about me as well as my streams which I started doing again as a way of cutting off the reality started to be bothered by jer behavior. She is scary, she knows when my brother lessons change so she walks up to him and talks to him. He is too scared to even go to school now. She tries to break into my house too. I know I should tell this the police but they wouldn't believe, there is no much proof and I don't want to ruin her life...

One time when I visited Noah I saw flowers on the little table next to him. I was sure they were from someone who is visiting him daily too. Then a girl walked in.

(Yes, angst again and also I was crying while writting it too as idk why it reminds me of my last meeting with my ex and yeaaaah- but I am in a writting spree or something rn so I'll try my best to write as much as possible)
(I also wanted to make the another chapter about the girl because I have cool and sad and weird idea about her)
(Anyway bye love ya <3)