Dark Empathy [KimVegas]

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Kim's POV _

After dinner I called Vegas for a short goodnight wish. He wanted to listen to music.

I just sang a song until I heard he was snoring. He's asleep.

I cut the call. At the end of the day I'm happy.

The next day_

I go to school eventually. When we're sitting together Lira comes to us.

My mood ruined again.

"Vegas… I'm really sorry for yesterday."

"Hey you don't need to. We're good friends."

"Thank you… well I wanted to give this. You can take this as a friend. I'll be glad."

She gives him a small box of cake or something. Vegas smilingly received it.

She left. He sits down and smiles at me.

I really don't want any more third wheels between us.

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Our graduation party will be held within a few days.

I can't believe that we've completed our school life. After that day no one ever disturbed Vegas.

But what about now? We're gonna be separated again. I'm gonna study arts and he'll study business.

But for the last 1 year he changed a bit more, like very much understandable to others feelings and thoughts.

I can sense his changes a bit but still not clear to me because he never dropped his smiling face.

He's being a mysterious person to me day by day. Something is unrevealed but I don't know what it is.

No matter how changed he is or not my feelings are growing deeper for him. I can't even think of a day without seeing his smile.

I can't wait anymore.

I think it's time to express my feelings.

Today I went to school. Vegas is there as always chatting with friends.

I went to them. I don't know why today I'm feeling uncomfortable. I'm nervous!

How am I suppose to tell him?

Maybe after school or maybe tomorrow.

No no no I've to say today.

"Kimhan.. are you ok?" Vegas' voice snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah I'm ok."

He just smiled. After the whole day went as usual. I didn't get any chance to say him.

The basketball match is over now. Everyone is going back.

"Hey Kimhan... play with me for some time."

Vegas said then throw that ball at me.

No one is around. Only us. I'm feeling much comfortable now.

We played for 10 minutes or something.

I was waiting at the locker room while he was talking shower.

He comes out.

"Kimhan... I'm done. Let's go back."

"Vegas... I have something to say."

"What is it?''

"Actually... I..."

"Come on Kimhan, why are you hesitating?"

"You know that... I.. like you, right?"

"Yeah"

"So... what's the name of our relationship?"

"What do you mean by that?"

"Vegas... I love you. And I'm very much serious about this."

Vegas went silent for some time.

"Kimhan... are you gone nuts? Do you have any idea what are you talking about?"

"Yeah. I'm saying with fully sound health and mind... I love you and it's beyond the relationship of a cousin & a friend."

"I think... you should stop your crazy thoughts about me."

"It's not crazy thoughts of my mind. It's about my heart which always belongs to you. This feeling doesn't grow in one day. Years, it took me years to realize my feelings with every interactions and moments between us. And now I don't want to hold myself or hide my feelings anymore."

"Kimhan... it's... it's not right."

I step forward which makes Vegas step back and lean against the wall.

I closed the gap between us.

"What is not right? Stop acting with me. Why are you hiding? Is it because we're boys or you and me being  cousins or because of the outside world or something else?"

"Kimhan... you're being too much."

"No I'm not being too much. It's you who's hiding your feelings. I know you love me. And you were aware of my feelings for you."

"I didn't know anything."

"Oh really! A person who understands the emotions of others so easily within a few minutes conversation that person didn't understand the feeling of his closer one. You want me to believe that?"

"Kimhan.."

"What?"

"I don't.. love you."

"Sorry to say but I'm not convinced with your lies. I want to know why you're denying."

"I'm not denying anything. Let go."

My patience is breaking. I grabbed his arms and pushed him against the wall.

"I can't let you go."

He's looking at me with his restless eyes. I went more closer to get his lips but he turned his head to another side.

"Love can't be taken by force, Kimhan. You should understand that."

My mind isn't working. I don't know what I want to do right now.

"You're right. But for me you're my everything and you're mine."

I kissed his neck. He tried to push me away with his hands but I grabbed it.

"Kimhan... stop..."

I sucked then bite it with all the anger I have inside me right now.

My teeth pierced his skin as I can taste some blood in my mouth. I licked it off.

I placed our foreheads together.

"No matter what... you're mine. You, Your love, your heart, your mind, your soul, every part of your skin and body... everything is mine. Mine only. I marked you. If something or someone comes between you and me I won't think twice to destroy it. Remember that... about your feelings for me... you'll admit it on your own."

I left him behind and drive my car as fast as I can then reached the mansion.

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After Kim left Vegas sits down on the floor. Thinking about Kim's words and the mark Kim just left over his skin.

He's tearing in silence.

He doesn't want everything to get messy like his life.

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