M Y C H O I C E

Playing : .i was all over her by salvia palth

SELF HARM, BLOOD

The bell was ringing, it was recess time, Jake was just relaxing the edge of the school rooftop

"was i made to be alive?" he is thinking negative thoughts again, he doesn't like that

"do I deserve to be here?" his tears were already fallen on his eyes

"I should kill myself" he ended crying and he starts cutting himself

"ouch.. " he let's it bleed, he wanted to die

"well well well, looks who's here " someone talk while Jake was just sitting on the edge of the rooftop building.

It was sunghoon, his bully "u-uhm what are you doing here!" Jake talk as he was nervous

"I see.. Cutting yourself? That's should be my job " sunghoon said, he grabbed the cutter and started to cut his waist

"n-no no please stop!! I beg you" Jake was crying non stop as sunghoon started cutting his waist

It was bleeding non stop, sunghoon was already left the rooftop while Jake was trying to heal it

Jake finally found a towel from his pocket, he wiped it and let the towel stay on his waist

"i-it hurts.. I hate my life! " he cried again after all of those rapes, bruises and bleeds from sunghoon

He never telled his friends about this, why did Jake got bullied? Was he annoying or just a piece of toy.

He should just telled them, but why he didn't? Was he stupid or just dumb, or maybe he will probably get more hurt.

He only did this to be safe but not that safe, was he meant to be alive was he deserve to be alive?

Jake toke out of cigarettes and smoke, he is already done with life but he is only alive for his friends.

His friends were his family, while Jake's family was just abusive.

When he was a child he didn't even have a childhood but bruises and a piece of toy that got played

He hated his body, he wishes he wasnt a piece of toy and instead just an ordinary person

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SORRY IF I MADE YOU CRY OR FEEL SAD, I feel bad :((

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