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CHAPTER 38 - Hopelessness

"Is it bullying or school work causing stress? It doesn't matter what it is. I just want you to be honest with me. I'm your father, and I won't force you to talk about anything you don't want to. I just want to make sure you're okay and maybe for you to open up a bit more." He gently placed a hand on her shoulder and said, "You're my daughter, and I only want what's best for you. I know being your age can be stressful, but please share with me what's bothering you. I may not fully understand, but I'm willing to listen and try to help." He smiled sincerely, hoping she would open up to him.

At that moment, Y/N felt the urge to tell him everything that was weighing on her mind, but the fear of being judged, especially by her own father, held her back. She was afraid that if she shared the truth about what had been happening to her since she arrived in Savannah, he might think she was crazy. The thought of being misunderstood and possibly even sent to a psychiatric ward terrified her. She wondered if her father would believe her if she told him the truth. It was difficult for her to even explain the strange experiences she was having, like traveling to a parallel dimension while her physical body remained in the real world.

The idea that they could die in that other world and it would affect their real lives was overwhelming. She was consumed by conflicting thoughts and couldn't focus on the present moment. Despite their achievements, she felt like something bad was looming on the horizon. She knew she couldn't change her fate or go back in time to avoid the risks she had taken. Every day in that other world brought new challenges and dangers. She wondered how many more risks they would have to take before things became even more serious. Her mind raced with thoughts about the present and the uncertain future.

The fear was overwhelming her, causing her to overthink. She knew she needed to be logical and careful with her words, even though she was unsure of what to say. She felt a tension building up inside her and knew she had to find a way to ease it.

"Dad, there's so much I want to share with you. I want to be honest about how I'm truly feeling, what I'm going through," Y/N said softly, her voice filled with pain. "I'm experiencing things that are beyond belief. I'm not sure if you'll understand or think I'm crazy. But…but…"

Tears began to flow down her face unexpectedly as she turned her head, not realizing it at first. The man looked surprised by her sudden display of emotion. He couldn't determine if it was relief or pain that caused her tears. Since her mom passed away, this was the first time he had seen her cry like this. Usually, when she feels like crying, she goes to her room to be alone. But this time, she cried in front of him. It was painful for him to see his daughter in pain, but all he could do was listen to her and try to help carry her burdens.

It took Y/N a while to recognize the emotions she had been suppressing, which caught her off guard. The intensity of her feelings overwhelmed her, causing her to burst into tears. She struggled to understand her own emotions.

"How much longer will I continue to make things difficult for myself? The risk of telling him how I feel is high, and I'm not sure if he will believe me. Even though I want to trust his words, I have to consider the potential outcome. Am I truly ready to take that risk?"

"I would never judge you for anything, Y/N."

She hesitated upon hearing this, unable to jump to conclusions. The likelihood of him believing her was low, but she felt a sense of obligation, despite knowing the consequences.

"Even though you say that, would you believe me if I told you something absurd? Lately, I've been seeing things that are far from ordinary. Ever since my trip to Savannah, I feel like you can tell that I haven't been myself. Since that day, I've been experiencing extreme pain, both mentally and physically, and I just want it all to stop. I want to tell you everything, but..."