ddlc: 'i can kiss you if you need it' || poorple

i can kiss you if you need it

-Platonic? - I specified. My first thought was that I didn't understand how it could work anyway. Then I relized that with MC situation would be kind of similar. I didn't like him a lot, I just liked him a little. Does that made a big diffrence with what I could get from Monika, when she seemed like she already agreed? The last part was something I didn't and now won't get with my little crush. - Are you serious about this...? - Asked directly so I'd knew I didn't get any mixed signals.

-Yes I am. I wouldn't be unserious with something like this now. - Her tone was still full of respect to me and what I said before. It was really enchanting how much she cared. It's not like she didn't before, but in this situation it showed her attachment. I really felt like she was there for me.

-Um... Ok then... - I answered shortly for her to take a lead. I didn't know what to say more or what to do more. My psyche was running with emotions, thoughts and I was overthinking my desision about this. I actually didn't mind, I really did not, but something inside me was being some kind of scared. Monika's words were just brave and made me feel like I had nothing to worry about. I'm just gonna be kissing my girl best friend. I said so myself that I wanted to kiss someone as much as I wanted to always hug somebody that I was close to. It was going to be fine, or at least I tried telling myself that.

-So... Do you want me to kiss you? - I looked at her for two seconds before I nodded a couple of times. I didn't know what I was doing so I let Monika take charge of what was about to happen. When she turned to my side a little more, I felt nervousness in my head as my eyes started twitching a little. But it was something I wanted, right? - Sayori? - Monika noticed the tension around me. - Relax... I'm not gonna hurt you... - She started moving her head closer to mine which made me more and more tense. - It's gonna be fine. This is for you. - She then firstly grabbed my shoulders and gently massaged them so she could get me more comfortable. She definitely tried to get bad feeling out of me. When she took her hands off, she returned to closing the gap between us, that was already so small and so risky. I let out a little bit of my breath and just closed my eyes, when I thought it would help me not freak out. As I did, I first felt her breath on me so I knew she was right before me. I didn't jump away, which also meant that, there was no turning back.

And there it was. I felt her lips on mine, as she gently pressed them agaist mine. Then I thought it was gonna be just a peck. Just a simple kiss that's gonna last maximum five seconds. I quickly noticed that Monika wasn't pulling away yet. She seemed to gently deepen the kiss as I also did't move away. I really didn't expected it but I also started to feel like I didn't mind the 'session' to be a little longer. I felt the softness of Monika's mouth. I was sure she was using some good quality lip balm.

With every movement of her I felt like she was pulling me deeper and deeper. It was to the point, that if i wanted to, I could've never stopped this in this moment. I suddently felt buildup of heat in my body. I was supprised at the impulse and I wasn't sure if Monika also felt my sudden reaction. But with this urge I went all in it. I was kissing her back when she was deciting if we wanna go rougher. For my own comfort I placed one of my hands on the side of her neck, when I felt like I had a chance to fell out of the kiss. I didn't want that. I felt like I was in heaven. It was actually better than I imagined the kiss to be.

The feeling I get from Monika's kissing was dangerous. Then I still stayed still and let her made me this way. I trusted her more than I was scared. I knew something was forming inside of me and that was stronger than what I've ever had with MC. At this one moment I would've never wished for MC to take Monika's place. I knew it could be just Monika that could kiss me so magically. It was addictive with the feeling of endless falling down with the rhythm of strong warm feeling.

In one moment she grabbed my waist to hold me as still as she could. Even thought she had nothing to worry about. I wasn't going anywhere. I was sure she would be the one to break free 'cause I promised myself that I wouldn't. The heat my body was resiving was like a wave on a stormy sea. It was big, unexpected and it was coming to you often. Then if your ship started sinking in, you fell into a unexpected trap. I felt like that a couple times when I almost stopped by myself 'cause of a wave that was too strong for me. Monika was quick to help out with that, as she still was pulling me in.

We both heard some sort of banging and neither of us wasn't sure it was. Either way it made us pull apart from each other and look for the source of the noise. As we started panting, my first thought was that my mom returned a little bit eailer from work. Then after seconds of waiting we noticed that it was probably something outside and i didn't apply to us. I let out a big amout of beath I still had in me.

I decided to look at Monika with a flushed face. I didn't care that much 'cause what just happened was more crazy than looking into her eyes after it. I seriously would expect this to happen but then I was blinded by what happened this week. My best friend studied my face like she haven't seen it in years. In her eyes there was a spark that I could vividly see.

She leaned over me again while I supported myself with my hands behind my back. I was sure, she would kiss me again, but she just stayed like this for a moment. It looked like she kind of wanted to see my reaction to this. I gave her an accepting look. I wondered if she could hear my racing heart that was filled with motive.

-Do you... - She finally spoke. Her voice was as nervious, as mine would be. - Do you want to continue? - She wasn't as confident while asking as she was when her lips were still against mine, but I didn't care about that. She was fine that way.

-Yeah... - I answered quietly while leaning in a little for her to know how to start again. I knew she probably wouldn't have problem with that, but I still wanted to show that I care and that I also liked this. The second she started placing new kisses was as good as the first time. This time she even smirked against my lips that caused movement in my stomach. Soon she pulled me closer so our bodies were hugging each other almost complitely. Some of the Monika's movements I'd call agressive, but not in a bad way. She was just really passionette about this. I liked the way she asked for more.

It was funny how this morning I was worrying about mine's and MC's future with my feelings for him, and now I could barely remember them when Monika was here. The most important thing was thats she wanted this too. She may caught me off guard with this, but I still agreed with perfect awareness. She was right to say it was for me. I really felt that. She made sure I did. I didn't know what was gonna happen after we finished all this extreme make out session. All I hoped for was her staying next to me, 'cause I know I care about Monika. A lot.