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A/N// Hey my lovelies! I'm back! I just wanted to say that this chapter does contain eating disorders (mainly anorexia and bulimia). And while I haven't had a ED before, I have suffered with body imagery issues. Remember, that if you suffer from an ED/body image issues that they're people who can help you!!!
Requested by TsukiGoddo13

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     You couldn't even remember when you started. You couldn't remember when you didn't throw up after you ate, you mainly just ate so you didn't pass out during mission and to make your boyfriend happy. He didn't know, how could he know? Its not like you told him, and its also not like he went everywhere with you.

      You wiped your mouth, taking in a deep breath. You still felt awful, you gripped your bag as you took our a toothbrush and a little container of water. That's when you heard, " Are you sick?! "Oh, shit.
      You snapped your head to look at Tanjiro. How do you lie your way out of this? If you said yes than he would worry about you, if you said no than he would ask more questions. Something deep in gut spoke form you.
      "No, I'm not sick, "you answered nervously. You chuckled to yourself before mentally cursing yourself out. You were completely fucked. He was going to find out and who knows what would happen then?!
      Tanjiro had a puzzled look on his face, he was going to ask more question. " Are you okay? "
      Something in you boiled. " Yes... No... Maybe? "You threw your hands up in a confused and angry gesture. Why was it so hard to lie to him? You could lie to anyone else but him. This was bullsh*t.
       "What happened? "
       You looked away, you knew you were going to tell on yourself. "... I made myself do that. " You just said the words without any thought. 
       " Why?! "You hadn't seen him so worried even since you got seriously hurt last June. You felt awful, whether it was about getting caught or keeping it from Tanjiro for long you didn't know. Maybe it was both. You felt like you we going crazy. This wasn't supposed to happen, wasn't supposed to go on for this long.
      " I don't know, not now. Maybe I never did! Maybe I was took insecure, but now I don't know what to do, or for heavens sake what I'm doing! "You snapped, you didn't want to just everything just hurt. Mentally and physically. Your bones ached from crying for so long.
      It wasn't hard to see the gears turning in his head, trying to figure out how to comfort you. He just settled on a hug, a very tight hug. " You don't need to continue. I got you. "Even if you weren't strong enough to do this, you had Tanjiro as your anchor.

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      At first it want meant to be that big of a deal. Just something to help love you along. To make you better, in a sense. You didn't feel adequate, like you weren't normal. That the world was pretty while you weren't.
 

    You hadn't expected it to get this bad. You just couldn't stop. You wanted to, you knew it was bad, but you couldn't. When Kyojuro wasn't home, you didn't bother making a meal, when he was your didn't it much or at all. You just played it off as you not being hungry. You thought he want clueless. He wasn't.
      He knew, after a few weeks he put everything together. It hurt him to see you like this. A mere shell of who you once were. It worried him, he was more than just concerned for your physical health but your mental as well.