ivy ~ drew starkey

i woke up and looked at the time, it was only 7:30 but i was so excited i couldnt sleep. I got out of bed and started to clean. When im nervous i like to blast music and clean, its something ive learned to calm my nerves. As i was cleaning the kitchen i heard a knock on my door, no one was home besides me. I paused my music and walked over and looked through the peep hole. I saw Rudy standing at my door at eight oclock in the morning. I opened the door.

"hey can i come in?" he said in a raspy morning voice.

"uh ya i guess." i said as i gestured for him to come in."so what do you wanna talk about?" i had no idea why he was over here this early. Rudy was never one to get up past eleven on a weekend especially since he had been drinking a lot the night prior. 

"oh well i came to ask you a question actually." he said, as he spoke his voice got more and more shaky. 

"ok ask away." i said as i put my hand on his shoulder.

"so i uh wanted to tell you something but before i do you cant get mad at me." he spoke up finally after a few minutes of silence. Whatever he had to tell me was clearly making him nervous.

"i wanted to tell you that when your friend-uh Sabrina was here we-uh we hooked up, she didnt want me to tell anyone because she was worried you'd hate her for it. I couldn't not tell you i mean i know we aren't the closest but i just felt it eating me alive." he said. After he had finished speaking we were quiet for a moment. 

"uh ok, theres no problem with that, i mean if she liked you and you like her theres no reason you shouldn't be together." For a moment i didn't understand why she would want to keep it a secret, its not like i had any control over what she did. I think she simply wasn't ready for a relationship  considering all that happened over the last year with her ex, Joshua, so she blamed it on me. In the last few months i have known Rudy he always said he wouldn't hook up with a girl unless she wanted a real relationship . so i spoke up again while we sat there in my living room silent. "did she say she wanted to be in a relationship?"

"uh yea she did, i told her how i felt about random hookups and she said she felt the same way, so after she told me she didnt want me to say anything about it to a soul i thought she was lying. I guess it all makes sense now, after what i googled about her."

"wait you googled her?" i said laughing at him.

"what i needed answers, i mean shes famous and i didnt think it was bad." he said laughing with me.

"ok well i am glad you told me, and yea she went through a bad public breakup earlier this year." Joshua had torn her to pieces, and because Olivia made the songs and annoying people had put two and two together they assumed that she was a home wrecking slut and she wasnt. I had known her for six years, and she never showed any interest in a guy who was taken. Even when one of our friends boyfriends made a pass on her she denied him. 

"ya that Joshua jerk?"

"yes, she was heartbroken, she was upset and she didnt understand why he wouldnt stick up for her. When he left her and came out she was even more upset, i mean not the fact he was bi, but the fact she had went through all this shit just for him to leave her."

"ya i hate guys like that." he said staring at his rings. Rudy was probably the sweetest guy i had known, besides drew, he was loyal as hell too. I guess he was like a like a big golden retriever, smart, loyal, caring, and protective. 

"ya i do too. Maybe a word of advice is just to make sure she knows youre there for her no matter what happends. She could use some reassurance." i said as i gave him a hug.

"uh ok thanks." 

"so i hate to kick you out but i need to get ready for church so, unless you wanna come with you should probably go." i said pulling out of our hug.