Okay, so recently I've depressed. I'm surrounded by couples all the time, and it reminds me that I'm single and that everyone always leaves me.
I know people say they'll stay, but I've literally had a friendship between me and two friends end over ADHD and it made me really self-conscious about everything.
And by everything...I mean EVERYTHING. I'm afraid of how I put up my hair. I'm afraid to wear something that'll make me look weird. I'm afraid of wearing a fake nose ring.
I'm sick of living in fear. I'm sick of holding in all these feelings. I don't want people to worry, but I want to break down.
I haven't cried in almost a year, and I really can't do this anymore. I just wish I had someone to talk to about this, but I don't want to seem too desperate or too rude.
I could really use some support or suggestions. If so, please comment.
And I'm not making this for attention, though it seems that way. I'm sick of feeling so bad and hiding it.
I can't do this anymore. I feel like I'm drowning. I'm sinking, and I can't get back up.
It's so intoxicating, holding in my feelings. It's so easy, but it hurts so much. I'm suffocating.
