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"so you think that nyla-mai had it the best on set?"

"aside from the obvious people, i think it's safe to say so. i mean 'all that' made that pretty face into a superstar."

-excerpt from an all that cast member's interview

nyla-mai in sassy magazine for an all that promotion, 1994

trigger warning: sexualization of a minor and vomitting

THERE WAS a compilation of moments that led her to drift from this particular type of fame. She could never give up on the concept of it as whole because it was ingrained in her. From the time that she was little, she knew that she wanted to be a star. As predictable and corny as it sounded, it was the truth. She just always knew that she had to be somebody even if no one else thought the same. But she couldn't handle this type of stardom not if it meant being around these types of people,

"Alright, everyone! Take twenty and then we'll wrap this whole thing up!" One of the producers yelled,

A wave of relief hit her as she walked off the set. She was forever grateful for the opportunity to be on one of the biggest child shows on the biggest child networks. But that didn't mean that everything was all sugary sweet. They were in the studio so much that she'd forgot time existed. It was like a weird medium where she was so lost in the scene but yet aware of all the eyes around her. All the eyes taking notes, watching her every movement and hyper aware of all her faults,

The sound of squeaky footsteps took her out of her thoughts. Her eyes lit up as Kel walked closer to her, "You was killing it up there, Ny-Ny!"

She smiled and shook her head, "Boy! What did I tell you about calling me that corny nickname?"

"I know what you told me but I'm choosing to ignore it." He walked closer and wrapped his arm around her shoulder. She tried to ignore the butterflies scattering through her stomach.