If It's With You

023- Telling him

I heard him swallow a lump, "No, Muna. I am the one who is sorry, Love." he started. "I'm sorry for everything, you were not supposed to walk into that. I know you might not believe me but I didn't kiss Ash-"

"I know," I swallowed. Did I know? I thought about the possibility of it and Julia agreeing to it made me realize it might be the truth. "I- I was stupid, I over-"

"Shh."

I paused and for some passing seconds, we just stood there, tightly hugging each other while I listened to his heartbeat.

"No, you're not stupid and no, you didn't overreact. You didn't, baby." He said and another passing silence befell us. When did he start calling me baby? "I..." He paused. "I am sorry for not being there to protect you from him." He breathed deeply, "I am going to kill him if he ever appears anywhere around you."

His tight grip loosened around me and his hands moved to my arms, pulling me slightly away from him. My gaze travelled up to his length and when our eyes met, heated flames were burning in them. "No one messes with what's mine."

His? I broke off his grip and walked to my bed. "I'm not yours, Nicklaus," I said, sitting on the edge of the bed. "I don't belong to you," I added, my gaze dropping to the floor.

Nicklaus stood with his back to me, he wasn't moving and it seemed like he was carefully thinking about his next words. I wanted us to be cool again, to go back to what we were. I missed us and I wouldn't want some goddamn feelings to ruin what we had. We should stay friends.

His legs moved around and when I picked my gaze off the floor, I met his as he walked to where I was seated. He crouched in front of me and placed his hand on mine, which I held together on my thigh. "Do you think you can tell me everything?" He settled his brown eyes into mine, ignoring what I had just said. "Every single detail of it."

Biting my lower lip, I took a deep breath in and out. "Uhm..." I started and with Nicklaus's listening quietly, I told him everything. From the moment Carl started texting me, to him appearing at Julia's coffee shop. I told him all of it.

As I went into detail about when Carl walked into Julia's, Nicklaus rose to his feet and took some steps away but his eyes never left me. His hands were in his pants pocket and the frown on his face continued to grow deeper as I got to the part where Carl held my arm tightly.

"I just can't believe you said nothing about the text, Muna." He sounded mad and concerned at the same time. "He could've done-"

"Stop. Stop, okay. I just..." I paused and lowered my gaze to the floor. I muttered, "I didn't know he was going to find me." I was on the verge of crying again. I didn't want him to blame me.

Nicklaus sauntered towards me and knelt on one knee in front of me. Placing two fingers under my chin, he tilted my face up and said, "Look at me, Muna." I did. "I'm not mad at you, baby. I just hate that I wasn't there to protect you from him." He cooed and I nodded, a tear dropping to my thigh. Knowing he wasn't blaming me, relieved some weight in my heart.

Nicklaus with his thumb, wiped off tears from my face. "Do you have any idea how he might have known you work at Julia's?" He asked and I shook my head, no. "You never filmed any content over there nor mentioned it in your any of vlogs, eh?"

"Exactly, I-I haven't done that," I said, my tone cracking even more.

"What about your best friend?"

I shook my head, "No, Maya wouldn't do that."

Nicklaus released a heavy breath, and standing up he said, "You know I've wanted to tell you something since this week."

"And what is that?" I asked, straightening my back.

Nicklaus walked to the vanity table in my bedroom and perching his ass to it, he folded his arms across his chest and his legs against each other. He asked. "Do you remember the guy from the other day at Julia's?" He asked and I instantly knew he was talking about Tim.

My heart skipped a beat like it always did, each time the thought of him slipped into my mind. It was nothing but fear. "Yeah, his name is Tim," I muttered.

"You remember the time we were out with Andrew and Simon?"He asked and I nodded. "I saw him on that day, and his eyes were on you... us. He looked like a creep."

My heart dropped to my stomach and my hand shakily moved to the bed. I held tightly hoping I was only trembling inwardly. But I guess I wasn't because Nicklaus steps hurriedly moved to me, and sitting next to me, he asked. "Are you okay, Muna?"

"No," my voice trembled. "I- I think he is stalking me," I blurted out in fear. "And Julia thinks the same."

"Fuck!" Nicklaus gritted through his teeth.