Who else but you?

God....why do I hate it when they talk to each other.....am I angry because Mitsuri is talking to someone other than me or.....am I angry because....Sanemi is.....SHUT IT THOUGHTS! It's not like that!.....I think.....

They're both staring at me. Misturi,the look of innocence all over her face while Sanemi he.....his expression is the same as always but......I feel...almost uncomfortable with his gaze.....this....has never happened before.

I don't know what to think of it. He's looked at me that way before but.....it's different....i just...can feel it.....those eyes.....it feels as if they are piercing through my very soul.....is he annoyed by me?....no....thats not his annoyed face it's....different.....in not used to it.....it....it makes me uneasy.....

(Mitsuri waves a hand infront of Iguros face slightly concerned.Be snaps out of it realizing his mind was wandering again)

"Apologies.....I didn't think Sanemi would be here..." there I go again.....that cold distant voice i sometimes think to myself why it always comes out like that.....I'm suprised these two(Sanemi & Mitsuri) haven't left me by now.

(Mitsuri starts saying she wants to go and get some mochi from one of the stands nearby Iguro nods and follows her but stops and turns to see Sanemi in the past he would have left him there and go with Mitsuri but this time....this time he wanted to at least put some effort in Iguro sighs)

"You coming Sanemi?"

(Sanemi looks at him that same face but Iguro could have sworn it softened up just a little bit almost unnoticeable. Sanemi nods them both Iguro and Sanemi walk behind Mitsuri)

What the hell is wrong with me?! Why did I ask him to come! My guilty conscience is to blame for this.....I mean....it would have been rude to leave him there....im sure Mitsuri wanted that....or....is it me?....GAH!

Snap out of it Iguro! He's a friend! Besides you like Mitsuri!

..........

Right?......

God my head is spinning....(the three of them stop infront of a mochi stand and Mitsuri tells Sanemi and Iguro to go and sit down somewhere while she orders they both nod and go to look for somewhere to sit down)

Somewhere to sit down.....and I need to find it with Sanemi....great just great.....

(A few minutes later they find somewhere to sit down and they both sit down)

This silence is uneasy to me and....is he....staring? No it's just my imagination....but....those eyes...that intense gaze....its killing me making me.....feel something in my stomach.....will he ever spea-

Sanemi:"Obanai...did you eat?"

What....did he just ask me if I ate? "What was your question again?"

Sanemi:"did you....eat...."

So it wasn't my imagination what should I tell him....how should I respond....wait....since when have I been this uneasy with responding to a friend? He's a friend....just a friend....nothing but a.....even I know I'm lying to myself but.....I...can't pinpoint this feeling.....

Sanemi:"Iguro?"

Oh sh*t! I forgot to answer! "I did not that much though"
What is wrong with me?! My head is still spinning oh god!!!

Sanemi:"are you....hungry?....i can't get you something if you....want...."

Why are his words so far apart? He usually has us his sentences in one go but his words are.....butchered? Is he.....also nervous? Wait....his face it's....theres not that much sunshine but I could swear I saw his face turn slightly red? Oh right! How should I answer him? I'm not really hungry but.....I don't want to turn him down.....UGH! Why am I thinking so much about it! "I'd rather have tea"

Wait that didn't come off as rude did it? Why am I panicking it came off as rude didn't it? Oh god I don't know what t-

Sanemi:"I'll....go get some for you.....is....matcha alright with you?"

(Iguro nods right after Sanemi talks,then Sanemi gets up and walks over to a nearby stand that sells tea Iguro is left all alone to his thoughts and the feeling of embarrassment)

Oh god I should have just said no to the offer but then again.....wait....whats wrong with me?! When have I ever cared about being rude to someone....well.....it also happened with Mitsuri....wait am I..... no no no no no NO! I am not I will not! I'm not....right?.....

(Mitsuri comes back with mochi and places them on the table)

Mitsuri:"where's Shinazugawa-San? Did he leave again?"

"He went to go and get some tea" wait why didn't I tell her that he went for me? Alright something is seriously wrong with me

(Sanemi arrives a few minutes after Mitsuri and hands Iguro the cup)

Sanemi:"here.....I....didnt put a lot of sugar....since....you don't....like....sweet stuff that much"

There he goes again with that gaze and the gaps between his words......I can never tell what's on his mind.....

(Iguro reaches out to grab the cup and puts his hand over Sanemis. He could have sworn he saw Sanemi blushing just slightly barely noticeable but it's there)

He's definitely blushing.....right? Is he....nervous like I am.....oh god what's going on with me....and what's with that gaze! Huh....ive never noticed the color of his eyes there.....a lavander color....

(After what seemed like forever he finally takes the cup he noticed that when he got the cup Sanemi looked slightly disappointed. Iguro shook off the feeling and drank from the cup. There was silence between the three until Mitsuri go up telling them that she needed to go and pick up her sword because they were fixing it because it was chipped she apologized and left two boxes fully of mochi and left. Iguro didn't know what to do now he looked at Sanemi and noticed that Sanemi didn't even care that Mitsuri leaves he didn't even look her way instead his eyes were on him,on Iguro the whole entire time)

*Author:Hello I literally don't know where I'm going with this story so pls bare with me!!!!! 🥲 but enjoy this chapter!!!!!!*