tolerate it-max verstappen

iris's pov: almost 4 months pregnant, due 5-1-25
I was finally starting to get over morning sickness. I decided to stay with Poppy at home for the São Paulo GP, since that week I didn't feel great. But I was back in America with Max for the Vegas GP this weekend. We haven't talked much still only really when P is around we seem to let loose a bit. But when it comes to night it feels like we are starting to become strangers again. I hate it, I hate the feeling, I feel myself falling deeper and deeper into my thoughts every night.

     I have another doctor's appointment tomorrow for an ultrasound sound. Max had free practice tomorrow at the same time so he can't come. I was bringing P with me though so she can see the baby on the monitor.

     I stood up a little early this morning so I can shower in the morning, Max was still fast asleep facing the opposite way on the bed. Slowly making my way to the bathroom to start the shower up so the water can be warm when I get in after picking out my outfit for the day.

     Removing Max's shirt off of my body and proceeding to remove everything else to step into the shower. Feeling the warm water cascading down my body, feeling my mind relax a bit since it hasn't been able to ever since finding out about the baby. Taking as much time as I need to before getting out after washing my body and hair.

     Putting on a loose pair of pants before ultimately deciding to wear another one of Max's shirt to the appointment since it was loose fitting and easy to have at the doctors. Looking into the mirror lifting the shirt still not seeing any signs of a bump, but putting the shirt back down tucking a piece into my pants. I'm sure I'll have a bump by the end of the month. I was scared at first but I don't know I'm getting a bit more excited, a little mini version of Max and I would be cute, I mean P is already a mini version of Max just with brown eyes.

     Walking out of the bathroom to see Max and P talking "You be good for mummy today at her doctor's appointment today okay flower." I watched them from the corner as she nodded her head at his request. P's eyes glanced over to my direction which made Max turn around to look over at me as well. Soon after looking at me he looked back at his daughter  "Okay well I have to get going okay, be good for mummy remember" he told P once more before giving her kiss on the cheek. Watching him stand up to grab his backpack full of things he needs for the day walking towards my direction. Seeing him stop in front of me before pulling me into a hug and giving a me a kiss on my temple then letting go and leaving shortly after, no words were spoken.

      Hearing the door close behind me not even bothering to look behind me. Making my way towards P who was sitting on Max's and I's bed. "Come on P let's get you changed so we can go and maybe we can do something fun after" I said to her as I picked her up and we went into her small bedroom that was attached to ours to look for a outfit to wear. Stopping at her suitcase as we picked out some pants and a shirt for her to wear for today.

     "Do you and Daddy still love each other mummy. You guys don't smile anymore" I just wanted to burst into tears right there but I kept my cool.

    Smiling and nodding at Poppy as I caressed "Yes princess we still do, he had to get to work okay flower. But yes we still love each other" I told her as truthfully as I could because on my end I still do love him, but it doesn't feel reciprocated back anymore to me at least.

     I finished getting her ready as we put on our matching black sambas to head out. Having a driver take us to my appointment making sure no one was around when I got out of the car. Getting inside quickly as I held P's hand as we were walking.

     Quickly getting inside giving my name already being escorted to the back. Guiding us to the room quickly as I walked over to the table as I asked P to sit in the chair and brought it close where I would be. She quickly took my blood pressure, heart rate, etc.