Solo ◇Thomas◇ II

Dear Thomas

This is the first letter I can remember writing. Obviously I don't know if I've written any letters before the Maze. But even if it's not my first, it's likely to be my last. I want you to know that I'm not afraid. About dying anyways or forgetting. It's losing myself to this virus, that's what scares me. So every night I've been saying their names out loud. Alby, Winston, Chuck. And I just repeat them over and over like a prayer. And it all comes flooding back. Just the little things. Like when the sun used to hit the glade at the perfect moment, right before it'd slip beneath the walls. And I remember the taste of Frypans stew. I'd never thought I'd miss that stuff so much. I remember you. I remember you first coming up in the box, just a scared little greenie, who couldn't even remember his own name. But from the moment you ran into the maze, I knew that I would follow you anywhere. And I have. We all have. If I could do it all over again I would, and I wouldn't change a thing. My hope for you is when your looking back, years from now, is that you'll stay the same. The future is in your hands now Tommy, and I know you'll find a way to do what's right, you always have. Take care of everyone for me. And take care of yourself. You deserve to be happy, Thank you for being my friend. Goodbye, Mate

Newt

Dear Thomas, 

Newt gave me the idea to write this letter as I probably won't have enough time to tell you this. I don't remember writing any letters before so this might be my first. I do know it's my last. I didn't tell you I had the Flare because I wanted our focus to be on getting Minho back. After Newt told everyone about him having the Flare I knew you were already struggling enough and didn't need anymore of it on you. I love you Thomas and I know you love me but we both know it's not romantically. You like Teresa and I'm starting to like someone else. Not that it matters since I won't be here much longer. You should know that Newt was never going to take the cure and neither was i. We wanted to die and although you might feel like it's your fault we arent with you at the safe haven, it isn't. This was our choice and don't blame yourself. 

Tell the others I'm sorry, that I wish I could have told them a long time ago. Please take care of Zach. We are his only family and now you are his family. Tell Gally I would've loved to have more time with him but unfortunately that's not how this world works. 

Thomas, I want you to live your life the best you can, make memories. With the others and Teresa, have a nice family with her. And when the time comes Newt and I will be waiting for you. 

Just know i'm not afraid of dying if anything i'm afraid of turning into a crank but that's not going to happen. I won't let myself be lost to this virus. 

Love, Pixie.