Something's wrong

Well, so much for sleeping.
Back onto my HORRENDOUS sleeping schedule.
.
I think I might have insomnia.
I've never been able to sleep.
During the summer.
At a friends house.
During the school year.
Holidays.
Weekends.
I don't really remember the last time I slept like this though. It's like, a distant memory. Faint and far far away.

I forget who I am sometimes.
I'm a girl.
My name is Maeylnd. Maeylnd Arnold.
I'm 15.
My sister is 12 and my brother is 9.
My favorite color is purple.
I like the smell of fresh cut grass.
I like turning the music all the way up and putting headphones on.
It helps sometimes.
I like talking about the terrible school system with my aunt.
I love my aunt.
I wish she was my mother.
My sister looks more like my mother than me.
It's crazy cause she's adopted..
.
Now that I think about it, I'm not like my family at all.
I like rock and scene music,
My dad like country,
My mom likes 90's,
My brother likes techo,
And my sister likes Hispanic music.
Probably cause she's Mexican.
Me and my family are white.
My mom's just very tan.
I tan too. My brother and father burn.
Burn.
Burn.
Burn.
Burn.
Burn?
Sometimes when I write, type, or say a word for so long it doesn't seem like a word anymore.

Words.
Words are crazy.
Sometimes I forget how to speak. Not like going mute but like, my mouth will move and I think I'm saying words but nothing comes out.
And I'll be in the middle of a sentence too! The all the sudden-
...
Silence.
No words.
No sounds.
No voice.