Aphmau X Child! Reader

A/N: So many words (28k) So many months (6 to be exact) I'm beat.. ×0×

On the bright side! Once we get to starlight, it'll be summertime for us too, Lol 🥲 mOre relatable ig

TW: Creepy behavior from an adult male, breif (very very breif) mention of past trauma

If I missed any, due lmk :) Enjoy!

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|..Fears. Tell me fears..Don't get me started..|

The walk to school was a lot longer than you remembered.

By the time you had gotten there, you were fairly out of breath and walking barefoot seemed a lot more appealing than the shoes you were wearing currently (which also suddenly felt way too tight) and it looked like the party had already started.

Lights were flashing on the inside. It was a good thing the gym was so close to the schools' front door, you weren't sure you could do anymore walking.

"Finally," You huffed resting with your hands on your knees, "I felt like I was walking forever..Maybe it would've been better for Mom to have drove me..Ah, but her friends are over right now. It would've been wrong of me to pull her away from them. She..She doesn't need me right now."

..You were quiet for a long time after that sentence. Not a single thought in your head.

You sat up straight again.

The only thing that came to mind was to take that first step and enter that party. Where all your peers were.
That's why you were here, wasn't it?
So that's what you'll do.

You moved your foot to the first step of the schools stairs-
And you froze.

...?

"..huh?"

How odd.

Why..Couldn't you move your feet all a sudden. They felt glued to the ground, almost. As though you physically couldn't bring yourself to go foreward.
And for some reason, taking that one step sent your heart into a frenzy and you felt your throat becoming dry.

Then.

an overwhealming feeling of pure unadulterated fear filled your chest.

Suddenly, there was nothing but thoughts in your head: Asher was in there. What if he sees you? What would you say, after what you did? Would he even want to see you? Speak to you? Would Logan? Probably not-nobody does. You did hit a kid.

Hard.

You straightened out your skirt as if it wasn't straight enough already, taking a step back.

Why were you being so self-conscious? You just said you liked what you were wearing before you left the house. Nerves?
It's just nerves.
Nervous to be here alone without Dad.
Dad would probably be carrying you inside about now - awkward - but no less excited because he gets to be with you.

Just you.

There was a weird twist in your stomach.
Maybe you aren't even ready to be here yet.

Maybe it's time to leav-No, stop that.

If you go home now, Mom would just be confused.
You've aready broken her heart by saying you didn't want to go with her. What sense would it make to just return after that childish outburst?
You should stop thinking.
You're thinking too much.