dark thoughts, second version

*the next morning*
I woke up to the sound of my alarm buzzing and the sunlight beaming through the window of my bedroom on my face.
I got up and got ready since I need to go to work. I covered my fresh scars with concealer and then put some light make up on my face. I wore my light washed jeans and a long-sleeved grey top. I didn't want to eat something once again so just left to my car, I felt a little light headed but just ignored it since I would have to be 100% focused for work and on getting to work.
When I arrived I saw Angela and Nyla already chattering and laughing at one of Angela's jokes, I went straight into the locker room and changed as quickly as possible so no one could see my body, I was lucky that it was cold outside so I could put one my long sleeved uniform. When I went into roll call room I was greeted with a small smile from Tim, dang it I'm so in love with that man, I realized that he wanted to talk to me yesterday so started imagining all of the things he could possibly want to talk to me about. In the middle of a what if scenario sergeant Grey walked in the room and called out my name since I was lost in my thoughts.
G- earth to officer Chen, you alright?
L- yeah, I'm sorry just a bit tired.
G-alright, so night shift dod their job for once so go and find some crime, dismissed.
I was walking to the shop with the war bags when I suddenly lost my balance but managed to not fall over.
I hope no one noticed, especially Tim. Once I loaded the war bags in the shop I sat down in the passenger seat with Tim already waiting for me.
T- You ok Luce, you look pale?
L- yeah, just tired that's all.
T- You sure, I mean if there is something wrong just let me know ok?
L-will do, thanks
We went on patrol and had a few minor calls, nothing big. Before we knew it, it was lunchtime, my least favorite part of the day.
I know that if I don't eat anything people would suspect something and that's the last thing I want to happen, so I ordered a small salad, hoping it would stop my dizziness, I paid for it and went to sit with Angela, Tim and Nyla who had already ordered their food. When I was done eating I said I needed to go to the toilet, once I was inside I locked the door and slid two fingers down my throat causing me to throw up all of the food I just ate, when I was done I looked in the mirror and cleaned my face and adjusted my hair into a bun. I unlocked the door and walked back over to the table, Angela and Nyla had left already so it was just Tim and me left.
T- ready to go back on patrol?
L- yes sir
T- good
We went back out and got dispatched to a bank robbery, there were two suspects, one was armed and the other one was collecting all of the money. We pulled out our guns and the robbers ran away in different directions, Tim chased down the armed one and I followed the other. Tim was lucky since the suspect tripped and fell, he arrested him and put him in the shop while I was still chasing the other one, he kept running around and eventually I managed to tackle him and arrest him. We were walking back to the shop when I again started to feel light-headed and before I knew it I blacked out after putting the suspect in the back of the shop. I could still hear voices, Tim's voice yelling my name over and over telling me to wake up, my sight was just black, after a while my sight came back, still a little blurry but that didn't matter. I sat up and saw Tim sitting right in front of me with a worried look on his face. I kept telling him over and over that I was fine but he would believe it. He insisted that I would get checked out in the hospital, but I couldn't since I knew that they would discover that I hadn't eaten a decent meal and actually kept it inside. When we arrived my sight was back to normal and the suspects were taken over by other officers. The receptionist guided me into a room and told Tim to wait in the hall, since officers with guns and other weapons aren't aloud to sit with the other civilians. After waiting for a few minutes that felt like ages Grace came into the room, running some test on my sight and a blood test, she said it would only take a few minutes for the results to come back so I stayed in the room scrolling on my phone. Not much longer she came back and had a few papers in her hand, she said that I had a very low blood sugar and was cleared to go back out if I ate something with a lot of starch like a banana or some other fruits. After I ate a banana yogurt and drank something she gave me I could go back to Tim. Of course Grace was talking to me about the not eating but I wasn't listening so after what felt like ages she was finished and I walked put of the room and told Tim that I just had low blood sugar like I excepted. We went back to the station and spent the rest of shift doing paperwork since he wouldn't let me go back on the streets. When shift was finally over I went into the locker room and changed into my normal clothes. When I was about to walk out of the station I was stopped by a strong hand on my shoulder, as I looked back I realized that Tim still wanted to talk to me about something so I apologized saying I forgot. He wanted to meet up at my apartment at 5 (it was 4:30). I got in my car and drove home, made some dinner for me and Tim knowing he would stay over for dinner anyway. I put it in the fridge so I would just have to warm it up (it was lasagna) and before I knew it there was a knock on the door.
T- hey, I know I'm a bit early but I hope that's ok?
L- ye, of course, come in and make yourself at home
T- thanks, so I wanted to talk to you about something important
L- sure, but before we talk do you want to eat dinner?
T- sure, if it's not to much trouble?
L- no of course not, I already made dinner since I assumed you would say yes
T- great, so what did you make?
L- lasagna, I know it's your favorite
T- you know me so well
L- to well
I warmed up the lasagna and plated it up and made the table ready
L- so, what did you want to talk to me about?
T- well I know that in the safe house we both said that we have feelings for each other and-
L- kissed
T- yeah and I was wondering, what are we?
L- what do you mean?
T- you know, are we dating, in a relationship, bf and gf,...?
L- well we haven't been on a date except if this is one.
T- I mean it could be
L- so a date it is, and to answer your question we are now officially dating
T- great
L- now eat your food before it gets cold
T- yes ma'am
L- was that all you wanted to talk about?
T- no, so my last question, are we going to tell the others about us because Nyla and Angela are already speculating about us being together.
L- well I mean I wouldn't mind it but I'm also not that comfortable with them knowing since we see each other at work every day.
T- ok so you mean keep it professional at work and when people ask admit that we're dating?
L- ye, kind of,but if you don't mind I would like to keep it down for a while you know, since it's still new?
T- yes of course so if someone asks we are just friends?
L-if you're ok with it then yes please?
T- no no, I understand, so let's go on with our 'date'
L- with pleasure