Doubts

My mother always told me that the stars were little windows so the people in heaven could gaze upon their loved ones. It was funny, since I'm the child of a pagan god and aparently people don't go to heaven, but the moment I died all I could think about was that the Underworld had no windows, and that the stars were just that, stars.

you're probably saying, But Leo! What do you mean dead? Well, yeah dead, but I got to give you a bit of context before. I was in this super cool battle, but then Khione (previous crush of mine, but also the evil daughter of a god) practically threw me to Calypso's island, thinking that since Olympus was shut down at the moment, I wouldn't return. But, surprise surprise! I did! Anyway, im getting off trail, when she did that, I landed on a beautiful island, Ogygia.

Ogygia is a island that was made by the gods as a prision, it was beautiful, with everything you could ever need, food, water, shelter, you name it. There, Calypso was prisioner, she's a titaness, daughter of Atlas, and she was punished because the guy aparently made the gods mad, now he's carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders. And the gods didn't have enough with making him carry the biggest weight on Earth, they also had to punish his kid to an eternity of loneliness, she's bound to fall in love with every man that sets foot on her island, and then watch him go, and that process repeat for all eternity, her words.

She's beautiful, long hair and that those things that greeks and romans wear, that kind of look like bedsheets? you know what im talking about?- Well, she's also stubborn, and grumpy, and has a strange sense of humor, she's not exactly the kind of girl who's easy to deal with, if you know what I mean. But she's also easygoing and very, but very very smart. 

When I got on that island, I might or I might have not landed on her dinner table, and she might or might have not told me to go away, but with the days I started growing fond of her, and she of me, we worked day and night on the boat I was going to use to go away, to go back home. But that had felt like my home for the last ... 5 days? 6? Calypso told me that time goes quicker in the island, that it might had been a month maybe? two? It was hard to tell, but I didn't care at that moment, all I could this about was Clypso this, Calypso that, but this was ofcourse before me actually dying.

I swore by the river Styx (which is like the biggest oath you can make) that I would return and get Calypso out to the modern, real world and take her to many places, maybe even make our own workshop, like we dreamed we could when we were on the island. Well, fastforward to the momment of my death, the prophecy promised that either Jason or me would die, and I couldn't allow that, so I gave myself up, I sacrifaced myself so he wouldn't die. But don't worry! I had a plan! there was this cure, the Phisycian's cure, so when I died it would bring me back and I could go back to the island since I was tecnically another person, a new person, and I could get her back.

I used Odysseus' boat, I rowed with all my force, and when I saw her, something I knew really well filled me. I covered it up at the moment, I smiled wide and hugged her with all my force, I was so happy I couldn't bare it. But that feeling filled my brain more than happiness did, and one thought repeated itself, over and over again. I pushed it down with more force, trying to keep it at bay, but what comes down somehow has to come up, one way or another. And that tought keept repeating itself for days, weeks, day and night, I couln't even sleep. It was there when I was with her, and when I wasn't, when she treated me right and when she treated me bad, I didn't want to accept it, but she did trat me badly sometimes. The tought just wouldn't stop.

She was bound to fall in love with every man that set foot on her island, and I was desperate for love. Was it all just an ilusion of the same island that kept her trapped?

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