"You gotta love me and baby, we can call it a truce You know I don't got shit to prove This is something you always do You know I only give my love to you Ain't got a Goddamn thing to prove, You got my heart, this proof How could you ever cut me loose? Here's your proof"
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" I don't expect nothing more nothing less from you , babe. I know my role. " her role? Why does she say shit like that ? My thoughts are all over the place reading & re reading the message Lo sent me.
Do she not know how much I really fuck with her ? I know I'm on the road a lot but that's where I met her . You'd think she understood I be busy, that don't change the way I feel about her tho. This shit gotta stop .
"What do you mean your role ? Nothing more nothing less? Why you shorting me like this ? " I had to call her . I need to hear her voice . That'll tell me how she really feelin.
"I'm just not trying to pressure you to give or be something you're not into." She said "That's literally all. I'm not tryna upset you or short you I'm just being real from my perspective , Chris. But my break is over , I'll call you later when I'm off. I love you" "alright ya I'll talk to you later, I love you too mamas" I say waiting on her to hang up.
Ain't no way she don't kno I love tf outta her & if she don't what tf am I doing wrong? I know I'm not the easiest mf to be with but I've been trying my hardest to switch some shit up for shorty & clearly that ain't been working smh but im not throwing a whole year out the window fuck allat .
I gotta show her how I feel fr before she really get sick of my shit. Play her role? Man come on . "Aye hood" I had to call my bro . I need his help setting this shit up. She bout to get a whole other side of a nigga tonight. I'm not losing my girl .
"What's the word , broski?" " I gotta set some shit up for my girl tonight. You niggas know how I really fuck with her but some how she don't . " I say sighing hella loud. "What you tryna prove my nigga?" He laughed "this shit ain't funny hood. She really sick of a nigga . I can hear that shit in her voice. I ain't tryna prove shit but I gotta let her know what the real is.
She deserves at least that. I don't want her questioning how a nigga feel about her ever again" I replied "alright my nigga what's the plan?"
Lauren POV
Chris acts like I don't have a reason to feel the way I do . We have this convo at least twice a month. Like I'm done expecting more from him .
I fuck with him heavy like im in love with his ass but he's always so busy he never really has time for me . & at this point in our relationship I feel like there's no reason to try to make him give more, you kno? Why does he act like I'm trippin? I wish it wasn't but this is my reality with him .
I no longer am expecting more from this man, it hurts too much smh. "Alright, ya I'll talk to you later. I love you too mama" I love that man but I can't help how I'm feeling . I just need more from him but I can't expect him to give it . "That career & those hoes gone always come first . Huhhhh, I gotta get back to work" i say to myself, heading back to my post.
