Running (ghost x fem reader)

A/n- updates are gonna be slow since I'm in school doing shit but yeah enjoy this one y'all :)

It was a few hours before you made it back to base. You stood quickly hurrying to the lockers rooms as you stood stripping yourself of your gear. Opening up your locker and hanging up your vest and fixing up your rifle before you put it away as well. You shook your head , listening as soap and the others started to fill in the locker rooms as well and you kept quiet as ghost walked over , going over to his locker. The air was thick with tension , the only thing to be heard was soaps footsteps as he neared his own locker , starting to take off his gear as well , soap kept quiet too, knowing that you were still on edge. Hell he could see it on you , how your body was tense , shoulders were tight. You usually made playful banter when back from good mission but there was nothing good that came with Valeria. It was serious . You were serious , extremely and it bothered soap seeing you this out of it. He's never seen you so out of it.

Ghost observed you for a moment watched as you fixed your cargos and undershirt and you let off a huff and turned back , closing your locker shut and you were about to turn and leave but soap was the one to grab your worst which cause you to jump up slightly and push his hand away. At this action soap pulled back quickly and looked you over as he had a concered look splayed across his face.
"Lass you alright?..."
He asked you quietly with concern laced in his tone , you kept quiet for a moment before answering.
"I'm fine John."
You used his first name , causing soap to bristle at that slightly and come to a halt. He knew it was bad enough now but you never used his first name. It was mostly shitty nicknames and his usual call sign but you never called him by his first name.This caught the attention of ghost , who simply sat putting away his vest as well as his helmet. Hanging it up in his locker nearly.

"Y/n-"
Ghost started and you went to walk off still.
"Not now lieutenant."
You said snappily and firmly as you went to walk out the locker room but before you could he stepped away quickly from his own locker and grabbed your wirst firmly not letting you go. You grew slightly agitated as your thoughts ran as he lied his hands on you. His touch firm and gentle yet there was a slight hint of his own concern hidden behind it.
"Sergeant you stay behind. Soap some privacy."
Ghosts voice was deep and firm , the huskiness of it spilling out smoothly as he gestured for soap to leave for a moment to which he nodded , stepping away from his locker and leaving past you.

It was now just you and ghost.

"You watch your tone with me yeah?"
Ghost started off , your eyes roaming over him with a glare , eyes narrowed as he looked down at you.
"I know your worried but you need to keep
Low. Keep Yourself leveled. But as much as your worried you cannot go snapping at people right now. We all have jobs to do but we can't get them done if your panicking."
Ghost explained to you , knowing that you got snappy and slightly aggressive when you were on edge and worried about something. It was your way of trying to get a grasp on things , a way of trying to get that feeling that you have control of Things. You knew Ghost was right. You knew that he was trying to help you keep your cool and focus on the mission. But you couldn't shake that panicked feeling that was gnawing at your gut.

"Ghost I can't fucking sit here and not know what's happening outside of this. I have fucking family LT."
You shook your head.
"I can't.."
You strained.
Ghost's expression softened slightly as he heard the strain in your voice. He knew you weren't just worried about yourself. You were worried about your family too.
"I know you do, sergeant," he said calmly, still holding onto your wrist. "But you have to trust me when I say that we need to keep our cool right now. We don't know what's happening out there yet and we can't go rushing out there half-cocked."
Ghost looked down at you as you stood looking distressed by the passing minute.

Ghost seemed to consider your request for a moment before nodding.
"I understand that," he said. "But I can't just call a check-in right now. Price is in a meeting with the higher-ups. He can't be interrupted. We just have to wait it out."
The air in the locker room was thick with tension. Ghost was holding onto you firmly yet gently, his presence a grounding force in your panicked state. The two of you stood in silence for a moment now, the only sound being the soft hum of the air-conditioning and your own ragged breathing. You could feel the anxiety and fear radiating off of each other in waves, both of you trying to keep it together. Ghost's grip on your wrist tightened slightly, recognizing the look in your eyes. He was trying to keep you grounded, but he knew that you were struggling.
"What is it?"
he asked, his voice calm but firm.
"I need to see price..."
You pulled away and shook your head as you faced the door.

Ghost's grip on your wrist held fast as you tried to pull away. He knew that you wanted to see Price, but he also knew that you couldn't just go bursting into his meeting unannounced.
"Smoke, listen to me,m."
he said in a firm tone.
"You can't just go barging in there. Price is in a meeting with the higher-ups as well as laswell before we set off for next mission out in Germany. You have to wait. I understand that you're worried But we have to keep calm and follow procedure."
He explained and you glared as you pulled away.
"I lost plenty of family...I'm not losing anyone else."
And with that you were off , out of his grasp and one of the lockers

It was a matter of time.

Only so much you could do.

Only so much you could see.

It was just

A

Matter

Of

Time.