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my english teacher COOKED

so things with me and apricot are going so slow, I keep thinking he's not interested and then that he is like back and forth.

now today, we were getting new seating arrangements in the two classes I have with him. which im fine with, the one in my sixth hour put him closer to me and I barely moved from where I was.

however I cant stare at him the whole period because he would see it 😭

anyways at lunch cherry came running up to me all excited and I was scared for my life. my english teacher was giving all her classes new seating arrangements and cherry was going to ask her to put me and apricot at the same table.

so when she did, my teacher asked why and said that SHE ALREADY HAD PUT US NEXT TO EACHOTHER 😦😦⁉️⁉️

I was.....

whats a good word

shaking in my boots!!!

I was so terrified that the next period seemed sooo long

come 8th hour we sit next to each other blah blah but he ignored me the WHOLE time.

bro wouldn't even LOOK in my general direction 🙁

I thought it was fine because he was nervous maybe.

however.

fast forward a couple days, he's as dry as ever. no interaction or anything. last night, I went to the last football game our school was having and he was sitting with this other girl.

now im not one to make fun of other girls especially because im jealous and I didn't.

until I got a closer look at her.

HOW IN THE WORLD WAS HE HANGING OUT WIRH A GIRL WHO LOOKS LIKE A 10YR OLD THAT STILL WEARS CAT EARS UNIRONICALLY

there was this one point that night that ruined the whole night for me but basically I turned around and saw him poiting at me and they were like smiling or laughing or something like why is bro talking about me I wanted to actually jump off a high place

I was so incredibly confused.

I get home and my mom asks me if I was checking my messages and I just started crying

I texted him this the other night:

bro replied with "Yeah"

🙁

I was so sad

how do you even do that thats diabolical

WHAT MADE HIM THINK IT WAS OKAY TO EVEN REPLY WITH YEAH

so anyways I just didn't reply and I unadded him and I THOUGHT that would be it

BUT NO.

I HAD TO RE-ADD HIM TODAY AND COME UP WITH A STUPID REASON TO DO IT

SO

I SAID "I think my friend took my phone and unadded you" or something stupid like that and then all day im thinking "thats the stupidest thing ever I should've just left it alone"

wrong!

he replied to that with "oh dang" (typical) (not suprised) (lowkey deserved it bc I wont leave the poor guy alone)

so I tried to deviate a way to justify my stupid ass reason and just now I texted him this whole paragraph saying like oh I was staying the night at my friend's house and I texted you and the next morning I thought u didn't reply but then today I saw you were unadded

so now im waiting for his stupid reply that will probably make me cry

but im hoping he just comes out and tells me bc I don't want him to lie to me I want him to be straightforward and just tell me to leave him tf alone because honestly I need him to 😭😭

(Im just trying to justify him being a jerk atp)
anyways ill update you as always :(