Falling in love with an Aburame (x reader)

A/n- okay so to recap Shino pushed you our of the way of a kunai and it hit him in the chest. Poor shino

The German guy laughed. You threw a kunai and shruiken at him and split his throat. He fell and hit the ground hard. You rushed to Shino.
"Shino... My Shino!" You held him close. You kissed his forehead. The blood spread out as far as it could. Shino removed the kunai from his chest.
"Don't worry (y/n) ill be alright" He says.
"You better be bug boy" You kissed him and he went colder.
"I-I don't l-like that nickname (y-y/n)" he coughed and blood spluttered out of his mouth. You started to use medical nin-jutsu on him as best as you could. You only knew a few simple techniques for a medical ninja but it may not be enough.
"Shino please stay with me" tears streamed down your cheeks "please don't leave me."

"(Y/n) I've sent for medical ninja. Try singing to him it might keep his heart working and give him a chance" Hinata suggests.
"I-I can't" your voice comes out as a whisper because your upset.
"Just try" Hinata says. Shino's hand caresses your cheek.
"My lovers got humour. He's the giggle at a funereal. Knows everybody's disapproval, should have worshipped him sooner"  you sing with a cracked voice. You tried to stay strong for Shino's sake. "if the heavens ever did speak. he's the last true mouth piece. every Sundays getting more bleak. fresh poison each week. we were born you heard them say it. my church offers no absolutes. he tells me worship in the bedroom. the only heaven ill be sent to, is when Im alone with you. I was born sick but I love command me to be well aaaayy amen amen amen."  A blue ball surrounds the two of you. Shino leans up to kiss you but you stop him and lean down to him and kiss him.

Medical ninja come and take him off of you. You breath in. Your lips shake as you try to hold back tears. They rush him into hospital doing emergency medical nin-jutsu. You pray so hard that he will be alright.
"(y/n) they will save him" Hinata says and hugs you. "He has to be."
"I hope so"

you sat waiting anxiously outside of Shino's ward door. There was a load of doctors and nurses in there all treating him. Shino's father came. You looked up at him. 'Shino looks so much like him' You thought for yourself. You started thinking about that meal you had with Shino. You were so happy. You train of thought was interrupted by a doctor coming out of the room.
"you his dad?" he said to Shibi. Shibi nodded. "you his sister or girlfriend?" you stood up quickly.
"Girlfriend, is he alright?" you was panicking like hell. 
"He..."

(Your pov, in ur mind)
The doctor explained to you how the blade had hit his heart and he was bleeding out. He told me how his heart was beating so fast it was making the injury worse and took it past the point of being able to be healed. I did that to him. I made his heart beat to fast. After the doctor told me I ran in and grabbed his hand. Shino's heart was failing and they was ready to pull the plug on him. Tears were pouring out of my eyes and my chest was hurting. It felt like I was having a heart attack or my chest was imploding from inside of me. I couldn't breathe and I couldn't see. His hand was cold in my hand. I was shaking so much. 

I left him with his father. I ran. I ran as fast as I could. Out of the village. That was it, the last straw. I wasn't going to let anyone stop me now. I would have killed myself but then I realised something. Shino would want me to live. Shino would want me to be happy. Once again I was stopped by Shino. My lovely Shino. The love of my life.