this story follows the storyline of Nikki and Taylor's relationship from both being runaway's to recovery and everything in between. this book also goes along with nikki's real life time line for the most part, like kids and shit.
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~~~~~ 2022 3rd person
"well, i'm wondering you guys talk so much about sarah and andy, how are they doing?" mandi asked
"sarah is doing well she's been married for 15 years and has 2 beautiful kids but um andy passed away 6 years ago, he was only 32" taylor says trying not to tear up
"ya that was definitely a hard one, i remember getting the call like it was yesterday. i was in the studio with sixx a.m and erik, sarah's husband, called me. he told me to get on a flight to illinois as soon as possible. andy struggled with the same addictions we did. i remember at sarah's wedding he was high as a kite, it reminded me of how i was at tommy and heathers wedding." nikki says while trying to console taylor
" im so sorry for your families loss" mandi says
"thank you, should we get back to how my father ruined christmas?" taylor said
"ya that might lighten to mood a bit"
~~~~~ december 1989 taylor's pov
we were alone at my aunt and uncle's house, they were in wisconsin seeing my uncles family. i was cooking dinner when i heard a knock at the door.
"babe can you get the door" i yell from the kitchen.
"ya i got it" he yelled back
"oh so you're the guy that's been seen all over with my whore of a daughter" i heard a voice say, it was my father. i swear my heart stopped.
"don't you dare call her that." i heard nikki say firmly
"i can talk about her how every i fucking want" i heard him say
"no you really can't, she hasn't told be much about you and clearly for a good fucking reason" nikki said staying weirdly calm
"mark." i said emerging from the kitchen
"im your father, you don't get to call me mark" he said
"you were never a dad to me, ed was, ed still is more my father than you will ever be" i said starting to raise my voice
"bull fucking shit, you think i want to find out through a magazine in the store and from one of my friends that you are flaunting around with some junkie and you're a junkie too" my father sneered
"I AM NO FUCKING JUNKIE, I HAD A PROBLEM AND NIKKI FUCKING HELPED UNLIKE YOU, LAST TIME YOU CALLED ME YOU NEEDED MONEY WHAT IS IT NOW" i yelled
"WELL SEEING YOURE PLAYING HAPPY FAMILIES WITH THIS SLEEZE BAG, YOURE GOING TO KNOCKED UP JUST LIKE YOU DID IN HIGHSCHOOL" my father yelled back, im not scared to go toe to toe with my dad i've done it plenty but seemingly after he made that comment, nikki had enough.
"YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO COME IN HERE AND TALK TO MY FUCKING GIRLFRIEND LIKE THAT. GET OUT." nikki yelled, i had never heard nikki yell like that but that wasn't nikki that was sikki.
i was physically shaking from the altercation after, my dad slammed the door and left. i was a mess, i never wanted nikki to see what i had to put up with my dad.
"shhh, it's ok. he's gone now, and for the rest of my life i will protect you from that man." nikki said rocking me back and forth in a hug
"i never wanted you to see that" i say but it was muffled from my head being in his neck
"it reminds me of how me and my mom are, i don't ever want you to witness that" nikki said into my hair.
"promise me we will never be like our parents to our kids" i say looking up at him
"i promise, but your mom she's pretty cool" nikki said
"i guess my mom is pretty cool" i said with a shrug
"if you don't mind me asking what did he mean by you getting knocked up like you did in highschool?" said nikki as we sat down on the couch
"my sophomore year i was dating this guys, he was in a band and bad news. but i got pregnant at 15, my dad did not take it well at all, he claims i 'fell' down the stairs. he pushed me, i lost my daughter, daisy, i was around 6 months pregnant at the time. then about a year later i moved to LA." i said wiping the tears from my face.
"baby, i had no clue. i'm so sorry, you would've been such a good mom, and still could be one day. i mean our kids would be pretty damn cute so" nikki whispered the last part
"you want to have kids with me?" i ask
"why wouldn't i want to have kids with you, baby i am so in love with you it's crazy" nikki with a confused look
"you love me?" i asked, i was stunned nikki sixx doesn't show much affection.
"taylor i love you with every fiber of my being"
"nikki i love you too"
" wanna just watch movies and fall asleep on the couch?" nikki asks
"ya that sounds really good"
~~~~~
after the altercation with my father left me thinking, am i really a whore. no, i am not, im taking back me. i taking back who i used to be, if 15 year old taylor could see me now.
"baby i can hear you thinking, go to sleep" nikki mumbled into my chest
"i'll try, probablym won't work" i said wrapping my arms around him.
"baby, i love you. don't forget that ever" nikki says playing with my hair
"i wont i promise, i love you nik" i mumble into his chest
~~~~~ december 23, 1989
after the encounter with my dad two days ago nikki has been on edge, anytime we went out his head was a swivel. thank god in the tiny town my aunt lives in there's paparazzi, it's really refreshing. but today we're back to reality today, we're in the car to nikki's house from the airport.
"babe you know if i didn't get revived 2 years ago to day, we wouldn't be together." nikki says quietly while driving
"ya, its kinda crazy it happen to both of us a month apart." i say
"i think its fate. without heroin we wouldn't have each other, it's kinda fucked up but." nikki said turning his head to me
"it's the truth, without tommy noticing and without you caring enough to take me to rehab i'd probably either be stuck in my closet high out of my mind or dead." i said looking down into my lap
"don't say that baby, i love you and of course i cared enough. i knew you were going to be mine someday the moment i laid my eyes on you." he said tracing circles into my thigh with his thumb
"my playboy comes out on the 31st, it's my first shoot sober." i say
"i know baby im proud of you, i can't wait to see it!" nikki yells rolling down the window
"MY GIRLFRIEND IS PLAYMATE OF THE YEAR!!!!" nikki screams out the window getting looks from the passerby as we drive down the lively sunset strip.
"damn baby, i love you" i say laughing
"i love you so much i could shout it from the fucking rooftops" nikki says
"are we going to tommy and heathers today?" i ask
"yes ma'am!!!" he says with a smirk
"ok!! do you have their present at stage house?" i ask
"ya baby, you've got nothing to worry about" nikki says
~~~~~ authors note: sorry for the late update, today is my birthday!! so i'm just kinda finding free time!!
