FROID (Lingorm)

A little or long note that you can just ignore....

Chapter 18 is really special to me. I poured my whole heart and effort into it, but even as I read it now, I feel like I didn't quite reach the level of satisfaction I was aiming for. 

Maybe it's because words alone can't fully express such deep emotions. Or maybe it's because I'm not a professional writer—I'm an engineer trying my best to put these feelings into words.

I didn't want to assign Bam a specific diagnosis, but her struggles reflect a mix of challenges like personality disorders, PTSD, and depression.

On a side note—everything we do, say, feel, even how we cry or laugh, stems from our mind.It's the control center for everything. 

Without it, we lose our sense of self. (Your heart, by the way, only pumps blood and delivers oxygen—it's the brain that governs who you are.)

I'm a really closed person, but we don't know each other hereeee ( ILOVEYOU STRANGERS)

This story hits close to home because it's inspired by my own life/experience.

My mom ended her life when I was 20, and my little brother was only 13. 

My parents had split up—it was her decision—but when my dad remarried, everything fell apart for her. She completely lost herself.

At the time, I didn't have a great relationship with her. I was angry, confused, and unwilling to understand what she was going through ( Sometimes she'd be loving and wanting to be with us, The other she's just a jerk to everyone who'd throw plates mid dinner out of sudden) 

All I had in mind that she wanted to ruin our 'happy new life' and was jealous of my step mother.

 I didn't even go to her funeral. I told myself I didn't care, but the truth is, I didn't know how to face it.

Now, at 33, I wish I'd been there. I regret not going. I see things so differently now. I'm healed now, thing happen in life...nothing is perfect struggles makes you stronger.

Through time and reflection, I've come to understand just how much people with severe mental health disorders suffer. 

Sometimes, they reach a breaking point where guilt, shame, or trauma becomes unbearable. It consumes them. 

They might have extreme breakdowns or meltdowns, and in their desperation, they may even harm themselves—like hitting their heads against walls—just to find some kind of release from the pain.

( That's what Bam felt, she never realized the burden or how she was even harming Lingling with her, so realizing it was her peak to end the heavy sudden overwhelming guilt that filled her.)

It's a heartbreaking and tragic reality, but it's also why talking about mental health is so important. We need to create a space where people feel safe to share their struggles, without fear of judgment or stigma. 

Compassion and understanding can make all the difference. No one should feel ashamed for struggling, and no one should have to face that kind of pain alone.

If you're going through something like this—or know someone who is—please reach out. Help is out there, and there are people who care and want to support you. Help is everywhere.

You're not alone, and your life matters more than you know. 

And if you happen to have no one, consider me as someone because I'd be more than happy to be there for you.

Anyways, don't feel bad for me..if I haven't overcome it I wouldn't have wrote this plot!...I have the best, beautiful incredible, step-mother in the world and I'm dating her goddaughter ( I said that bc Orm goddaughter is Lawan so yeaaah I'd say I'm Rin and I won....)

I made my step-mother read the fanfic...GOD she was like ' REWRITE IT! You did not do justice showing the bitter reality' 

Sooo this story is sweeter than it was intended to be....

I didn't mean to make you cry ( Or I did) it's good that means I did my job.

Dioozz