Would you fall in love with me again? (Newt TMR x reader)

𝐻𝑜𝓌 𝒹𝒶𝓇𝑒 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒹𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝑒?! 𝒯𝑜 𝓊𝓈?! 𝐼 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒𝒹 𝓎𝑜𝓊! 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝐼 𝓈𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝒟𝒪!

I was running and running and running, not stopping once, not for anybody. I had made up my mind, and no one was going to stop me or even dare change my mind.. not even the one I love the most.. even after what he's done. Tears were streaming down my face, both sad and angry tears. The constant attempts to wipe them away and stop them were to no use as they kept coming. 

"How could you?! How could you!" I scream as i ran towards the group standing there. All my so called friends stood there, guilt and sadness shown on there faces... but who knew if they are faking it or not.. I ran straight into them knocking them over, I try to hit, punch and kick them but it was no use.. the guards who were following me had easily caught up and was holding me away from them. Tears were streaming fast down my face. Rat man and doctor Ava, came up from behind them, Rat man was smiling and doctor Ava didn't even show a single sign of evident emotion. 

"Doctor Ava.. please don't do this to me... please.... I don't want to do this, I never agreed to do this" I plead with her, the guards griping my arms tightly. "Rat ma- Mr. Janson.. please I don't want to go there..."  I begged and pleaded but his smile still remained. 

"Take her to the lab, they are waiting for her" Doctor Ava said directed to the guards. They dragged my refusing body away from the group. Twisting and turning I keep trying to get out of their hurting, strong grip. I scream and cry, begging them to let me go. I never agreed to this... they choose me to go up there all alone... I thought we were friends.. I thought they...- he loved me enough not to send me alone... and without anything... But there was no use fighting against the guards grip as we got further away from the others by each step they took to the lab. 

I always knew I shouldn't ever give up but right now there was no point fighting against it... because one day I would get my revenge, and they all would fall, one by one, Doctor Ava, Janson and all those who are doing this to me... to us, they will crumble and I will be there to witness it before I even take my last breath. 

Sound of sucked air by the doors were made once the doors of the lab opened. The guards released their grip on me and let me walk "freely" around the lab... they stood positioned at the doors ready to interfere if it tried to run or attack.  

Sitting down in the lab chair, I look around at all the doctors and scientists who are walking around gathering things or reading tests. 

This would be the last of the memories I've made here.. with the people I cared for the most in the world... I know they will store it somewhere but it's not like they would ever give it back to me... not even in a million years... but maybe it wouldn't be to bad...

at least I get to forget about what they will do to me here... Forget about what the others did to me... going behind my back and choosing me to go up there where I could die, all alone.. 

A doctor or scientist, who would know the difference, came up to me with a syringe in hand. "Hey there... You ready for this? It's going to sting a little but afterwards when it starts taking affect, you will feel really sleepy so don't try to fight it. Ok? Its for your own good." 

"Yeah.. okay.. its not like I ever had a choice to do this either way...but please... I'm only 9.." I say not caring anymore what they did or what happened but slightly hoping saying my age would make them stop.It didn't.. I look away, once the person slowly injects the syringe into my upper arm just a bit above my tricep. 

The sound of a swoosh makes me look up, and towards the door. "WAIT!"  a light voice calls out. Whats he doing here... Why is he here.. Does he just want to watch me go, does he want to see me leave, in humiliation and anger. 

"I wanted to say goodbye.." he said in a soft voice, starring straight at me. He walked slowly towards me, before trying to grab my hand. I pull away immediately not wanting to touch him, after all he betrayed me. 

"Please... forgive me... I'm sorry.. the others.. they- they wanted to" he told me pain evident in his not so confident manner, his voice cracking a bit as if he wanted to cry.  "Please.. I love you so so much" This time he grabs my hand not letting me pull away and kisses my knuckles. 

I stare straight at him, dead in the eyes. Anger was probably the only thing I could feel at that moment except for the working medication that I was given.  I stay silent for a moment letting the medication take more effect before barely managing to get a few words out..

"I will NEVER forgive you.. I HATE YOU ..-

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Newt......"