His Savior || Negan

~JORDYN'S POV~

"Any idea how much longer?" I groaned in pain. "You're only about six centimeters, I need you at ten before baby can come out" Siddiq said softly. "Fucking christ. Next time I get pregnant, someone rock my shit cause I don't ever want to do this again" I said through teary eyes.

Aaron came rushing through the infirmary doors, Negan hot on his tail. I was already pissed off cause I was in pain, and seeing Negan pissed me off more. "I thought you left" He said.

"No, I just fucking avoided you.  Do you really think I wanted to be in the same fucking room as you after what you did?" I hissed. "Can everyone give us a moment please?" Negan asked softly. Daryl hesitated before ushering everyone out of the room, leaving me alone with Negan.

"I know you don't want to keep hearing me say sorry. Or how I know I fucked up. But from the very bottom of my heart, I am extremely sorry I left and didn't tell you. I'm sorry I chose the wrong choice and screwed her.  I'm sorry I fucked us and our family up. Truth is, I was afraid she'd come after you and our people if I said no. I was scared of her coming and killing you and our baby. I haven't ever been scared in this entire lifetime, until I met you. Even when I lost Lucille I wasnt this scared. Meeting you, has been the greatest thing I have ever done. Loving you has been the best thing in the fucking world. Everytime Simon got his hands on you, everytime you disappeared, everytime you weren't within five feet of me I panicked and wanted to spiral. The day I lose you, is the day I lose myself. You are the love of my life, you made me see things in a way I never thought I could before. I don't want to live another minute without you. I need you, without you I can't breathe, I can't think. I love you so fucking much babygirl."

His words sank into me heavy. Did I overreact too much? I took the last how many months of this pregnancy away from him. I took me away from him. Tears welled in my eyes as I stared into his, his expression broke me. Staring into his eyes I could tell. Negan was truly sorry, there wasn't a single ounce of a lie in the words he said. He meant what he said.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry I reacted the way I did. I didn't know you were scared, had I know that at the start we might not have been separated for so long. But I understand now why you did it, and I'm not that mad at you anymore. I love you Negan" I said softly.

Negan reached over and wiped the tears that fell from my eyes. I gripped two handfuls of his t-shirt and pulled him into me, slamming my lips onto his.

"You reacted the way anyone would have. The same way I would have if the roles were reversed. I couldn't tell you at first that I was afraid, I didn't want you to see that. I always wanted you to see I was strong." Negan said, his hand caressing my face.

"You will always be strong in my eyes, even on the days you're falling apart and tears are streaming down your face." I smiled.

Another contraction hit, and so did that god awful fucking pain. "Mother bitch!" I hissed.

"Before we call everyone back in. There's one more thing," Negan said. It felt like my heart stopped, was he about to tell me something else he did? Something else I'd need to be pissed at him for?

Negan got on one knee beside the bed and pulled out a ring, "I know we've been together for what feels like forever, and I know I should've asked sooner. But Jordyn Grey, will you marry me? Be my wife?"

I smiled through the new tears that fell. "I've been waiting for forever for you to ask. Yes I will marry you Negan. A million times, yes" I smiled. Negan slid the ring onto my finger, it fit perfectly. 

Another contraction hit just as Siddiq walked through the door. "I gotta check and see how far you are now mama" Siddiq said.

Negan's eyes watched Siddiq like a hawk as he checked to see how dilated I was. I chuckled quietly at Negan. "Alright mama, you are fully dilated, it's time to start pushing" Siddiq smiled.

I was in labor for twelve fucking hours. Twelve! What the fuck! Siddiq handed me our beautiful baby wrapped in a blanket. "You two are parents to a beautiful baby boy, congratulations" Siddiq said softly.

"Got any baby names in mind?" I asked Negan. "Yeah actually. Negan Jr" He chuckled. "Absolutely not" I laughed.

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Siddiq finally left me leave the infirmary after a few days, we still hadn't picked out a name for our baby boy. Everything we named off didn't seem to fit him just right.

"Elliot?" Negan asked. I shook my head. "Babygirl we have to pick something, we've got through every damn boy name possible"

"I know, but nothing fits him. We should just name him baby at this point" I sighed.

"Ezra?" Negan asked. I looked at him and then down to our baby and smiled. "Ezra, I like that one" I said, the baby in my arms smiled in his sleep after saying his name.

Ezra Blake Smith.

We finally picked the perfect name for our baby.

We didn't need formula for him. While out on a run a few weeks back Daryl and Aaron brought me back a breast pump, the bags, and some bottles for Ezra. Seeing as we didn't know how to make formula and didn't have much of it in the pantry, the council decided if more babies were born and wouldn't latch those mothers would get the formula for their babies.

Ezra laid asleep in his crib in the nursery upstairs, while Negan and I lounged on the couch. "I miss being inside you" Negan said suddenly. I looked at him with wide eyes, "Vulgar much?" I laughed. "For you? Always. Has it been six weeks yet?" Negan groaned. "No you dork" I giggled. "Ughhhhhhhhh" Negan groaned. I rolled my eyes and lightly smacked his thigh.

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Short chapter, it was pretty much just a filler until the next chapter was published. How are we likin the story so far?
~J