The Change. -ShadowVanilla

[ Quick disclaimer!! : ShadowVanilla, Some angst for Pure Vanilla, A small hints of self/harm, Depression, and bulimia, This is a serious chapter, You have been warned. ]

Chapter 5
Why must you do this to yourself?.

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Small recap:

Pure Vanilla couldn't contain any of his excitement.. His smile was almost ear to ear of happiness.. : He couldn't help himself to immediately run into a hug.. His arms squeezed Shadow Milk in between him.. Letting out a squeal. "You camee!!!" He squealed..

Shadow Milk's almost legs nearly gave out, The feeling of being squeezed with every ounce of strength by Pure Vanilla would usually cause him to have a fit of rage.. But- He felt.. Comfort. His hands slowly wrapped around the ends of Pure Vanilla's sleeves..giving a small tug. "..yeah- you don't have to.. Hug me every time you see me, ya'know-"

Present time:

Pure Vanilla took a few steps back from Shadow Milk, His sleeves hung over his warm arms.. Yet, He seemed to .. Hide them. His hands crossed directly behind him, Before giving Shadow Milk a nervous chuckle- "Ah, Yes.. I'm quite sorry, My Bluebird. "

Shadow Milk didn't really pay any attention to any of the body language Pure Vanilla was giving off, He seemed to.. Brush it off, "Maybe he just doesn't feel comfortable?. Or is nervous.. Yeah.." He shook his head, Huh.. A odd nickname for sure, Eww..
"Bluebird?." He mumbled curiously, Before scoffing ever so.. Dramatically, His hips swayed when he faced the railing. "You.. Dont need to give me pathetic pet names.."

God, Even though he hated pet names.. He still felt a pang in his chest, Did he really mean what he just said?. Ugh, what was he thinking?!. Of course...!

Pure Vanilla felt- stunned.. 'pathetic pet names?.' Is that what it came off as?.
His eyes closed for a few minutes.. Before holding a lump in his throat back.
"Yes.. - I'm sorry, My-" He paused.. "... Shadow Milk.." His voice ached, He felt a thought of- sadness.

It was silent for what felt like forever, The silence was sickening, almost toxic.

Pure Vanilla cleared his throat, Before he glanced around, His eyes landed on one of his Royal Guards, as his hand rose up giving a small sway, The Royal Guard took place beside Pure Vanilla.
"..Could you- set a room for Shadow Milk, Please." He said in the calmest tone he could do at the moment, Yet the faint cracks in his tone still remained..

Shadow Milk's bony blue fingers nearly broke straight through the waffle cones railing.. His body language remained calm, Yet his expression said a different story..

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-- Small time skip --

Pure Vanilla lazily poked his fork at hardly ate food.. His eyes lingered full of pure boredom.. Lacking the sense of purity and warmth, Huh.. Who knew one person could've effected him just from a few small words.

"..Are- you going to eat the rest, Pure Vanilla, Sir?." The Royal Guard cleared his throat, Taking a stand almost behind Pure Vanilla, A sense of.. Guilt in his eyes lurked.

"..No, But give the chef my thanks.." He mumbled quietly under his breath, His hand extended outwards to a blank white napkin..

Shadow Milk casually walked around the excessively decorated halls, His face held a boring look, Yet deep down.. He seemed to admire each and every subtle detail of the Kingdom..

Shadow Milks eyes landed onto Pure Vanilla.. He didn't think anything about it, But- no.. He couldn't be.. Right?.

..He just had to make sure.. He took a few steps forward to increase his vision, His eyes narrowed at his somewhat revealed arms, His thick sleeves seemed to cover just about everything though..
..His suspicions were correct.

Pure Vanilla arose from his seat, Nearly holding back just throwing up right then and there, But he seemed to compell himself just fine, : He stepped over to the side, As he began to head to the bedroom corders.. But once he turned the corner, He seemed to basically rush down the halls in.. A oddly fast manner.

That had to be plenty of evidence to Shadow Milks suspicions, He rolled his eyes slowly.. 'God Pure Vanilla..' He mumbled quietly under his breath as he slowly followed behind Pure Vanilla.. Before a door slammed right in his face- uhmm.. Ow?

Pure Vanilla tripped on his own cloak, Causing a small this to echo from the bathroom.. His body tried to scramble up to his feet, But the impact of the fall seemed to be the final straw..

Tears ran down from Pure Vanilla's face, Why did everything he do turn out to be so pathetic- so stupid.. His hands crawled, pulling his body forward.. He couldn't even make it far, Causing himself to throw up right in the bathroom sink. . Disgusting.

(Tw) : Vomit spilled out from his pinkish lips, Causing him to gag out of disgust.. His eyes couldn't even look himself in the mirror.. He felt so.. So disgusted in himself.

Shadow Milk seemed to- Change mood.. Could he have.. Felt bad?. No.! No.. No?. His hands seemed to involuntarily moved to the door handle- Even if he didnt care.. Which he doesn't...!! It.. Wouldnt help to.. Maybe comfort him?.

His body pushed open the door, Causing a small creak to come.. He nearly gagged out of the sight of Pure Vanilla throwing up right in front of him.. ".. P- Pure Vanilla..?" He mumbled slowly..

Pure Vanilla fell backwards on the ground, His head hitting on the tiled floor.. With a shriek.. "Ah-! G.. Get out.!!" He pleaded out, His head swiveled away from Shadow Milk, before he began to 'crawl' away from him..

Shadow Milk's eyes widened for a moment.. "..Are.. You sure you want me to go?." He murmured quietly, As he instinctively took a few steps forward, His thick black heels echoed from the tiled floor.. Before he knelt down in front of Pure Vanilla.

"..N.. No-" Pure Vanilla quivered out, His fingertips loosely held onto his own sleeves.. "..Do you want a hug.." Shadow Milk said, His tone lingered with slight embarrassment.. Just this one time.. Right?. : Pure Vanilla's eyes widened for a few moments..

Pure Vanilla released the grasp he had on his loose white sleeves.. His hair seemed to cape around his face- "M.. Mhm.." His tone was just above a whisper- a breath even.

Shadow Milk glanced to the side for a few moments.. Just barely able to hid how much- He enjoyed this. Well, Not Pure Vanilla crying, Of course.. More of- Having him right.. By him.

He faintly sighed, Before he sat beside Pure Vanilla, Leaning his back just barely onto the walls.. : His arms extended outwards to Pure Vanilla, As he lifted him into his arms. 'Why must you do this to yourself?.'

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HII SORRY FOR THE TERRIBLY TIMED CLIFFHANGER.. I js felt it was getting WAYY too long, But I will probably make another chapter today later, or js this week..

But like always, Have a beautiful day/night!<3