Back To Where We Started

A/n This Chapter will be now in Conrad's POV an understanding why he is the way he is I think it's been since yesterday since I updated 

But I do hope you guys like this fanfic the chapter will be longer than the other chapters let me know if I should do A Staylor Fanfic as well 

I was also thinking of doing a Rafia Fanfic (Rafe and Sofia) one since I don't think anyone has done one So I could be the first for that  

I didn't want to think about Belly right now

But I couldn't stop myself

I'd known her my whole life

She was the girl I grew up with, the girl who was always there, even when things weren't great between us

But that was before

Before everything came crashing down

She wasn't my first love that would've been too simple

 No, with Belly, it had always been this slow burn, something that had started when we were kids and just grew over time, piece by piece, until one day, it was just... there

Unspoken, but undeniable

I hadn't meant to push her away

 I didn't want to

But I couldn't help it

The day I ended things

When I finally told her I couldn't do this anymore was the hardest thing I'd ever done

We had been happy

I had been happy, and then suddenly, it all felt like too much

Too much to feel, too much to carry, too much to give

And it wasn't her fault

It wasn't Belly's fault that my world was falling apart

 But in the chaos of it all, I couldn't see a way to let her in

I couldn't tell her the truth

 Not about my mom being sick

 Not about how I was watching my parents' marriage slowly decay, piece by piece

 And certainly not about how my dad had betrayed my mom

 That had broken me in a way I couldn't even begin to explain

 But I knew one thing: I couldn't let Belly in

I couldn't ask her to carry that with me

I loved her too much to make her carry my burden

So, I did the only thing I knew how to do so I pushed her away

I broke her heart

I didn't tell her why

 I didn't tell anyone

Because the truth was, I didn't know how to explain any of it without shattering everything — including myself

I didn't tell her about my mom's cancer

I didn't tell her about the nights I'd sit in my car, staring at the ocean, wondering if I could just drive away from everything away from the weight of my family's pain, away from the lies, away from the secrets that were eating me alive

I just let her go

And now, a year later, here she was again

 Standing in front of me like no time had passed at all, looking just as beautiful as I remembered