Always and Forever -Maze runner Fan fiction-

Newt

Before I knew it, I was sitting in a room with Alby. I had no idea where, all I could see was Winston laying on the ground with the wounds I caused. Screaming in pain. The pain I caused. The hurt I caused. EVerything I did. Still, some part of me wanted to believe it was what he deserved. Whet he should'ce got a long time ago. I got pulled away from my thougths as Alby's voice ushered through the hut. I looked up and met his gaze, he was angry. But I could swear I saw a bit of understanding too.

"Ya gonna banish me now?" My voice sounded weird, not mine. I closed my eyes and before I knew Winston lay there once again. My vision blurred, another person lay there. Y/n, her body full of scratches and blood. Her bloodshot eyes were wide open, staring lifelessly into the sky. To the sun she joined as the brightest sliver of light. I didn't notice as a tear slipped down my cheek. I hadn't cried in some time. I only remember crying twice. I felt... relieved.

"No, he deserved it." Alby stood there arms crossed a smirk on his face. I looked up once again confusion marking mine. When he didn't continue I stood up.

"What do you mean? That's the rule!"

"You want to be banished?" The tip of his mouth lifted up. He found this amuzing. Anger clouded my brain once more, but I didn't react. Didn't want to give him the satisfaction to be able to get on my nerves. I clenched my fists and breathed out, trying to blow the image of Y/n out too.

"No, but I don't understand, I'm supposed to get banished for hurting another glader." Now Alby sighted, what the h*ll was going on.

"I'm not gonna banish ya shank. As I said, Winston deserved it. Although I'm happy ya didn't kill him there. If I hadn't pulled ya back... I think things would've ended differently. Anyways. I'll let ya off with a warning tho." All traces of amusement were gone. He was serious. Dead serious...

I'm not going to get banished. But why? When the confusion didn't leave my face Alby started speaking again.
"The gladers will understand. Everyone knows you, you wouldn't hurt anyone unless the really got on your nerves. And he did. So you beat him up. End of story. Besides, we have more important things to talk about..." he stopped. As if he was scared that whatever was going to come out of his mouth next would make me hit someone again. That could only be one person he was talking about. Y/n. I swallowed, tried not to close my eyes. To prevent flashes forming in my vision.

When Alby didn't talk I did.
"Where is the cure." It wasn't a question, more a demand. I never talked to Alby that way. But if we didn't find that tube I would lose my mind. Alby didn't deel to mind, but he hesitated before he answered.
"We couldn't find it. But I have Lots of Gladers looking for it, it's only a matter of time befo-"
Someone barged into the hut. Breathing heavely. He held a tube in his hand. The cure. Finally. I could breath again.
"Alby... we heard screams. Y/n."

My blood ran cold. My lungs froze to ice. Unable to take a breath, I stepped back. Eyes watering, vision blurred. I didn't feel how I bumped into the wall. How Alby shook my shoulder. Everything was numb. I was numb. Y/n was in pain. She was hurt. And I coudln't do anything...

Y/n

You just sat on the ground. Hands to your temples. Impatiently counting the seconds for the Doors to open again. To see the sun again. To see Newt again...

You screamed once more. You lost count. You patted your hands to your temples, harder and harder until your head pounted.
You kept repeating their names, over and over again. Scared that when you'll stop, the words and memories would erase from your brain. You would be a lifeless monster. Doomed to have the urge to hurt. To kill...
"Please... please just open." You said in between your whimpers. You were crying, silent tears rolled down your cheeks. Every drop urging a memory to come with them. Into oblivion.
You didn't know why, but you just started to talk. Hoping that someone would hear it, would know that you were waiting for freedom.