Billie Eilish Imagines (gxg)

Author's Note: just like in the first part, this chapter contains mentions of severe anxiety. It also mentions severe sleep deprivation and lack of appetite. If this makes you uncomfortable in any way, please don't read it. Thank you, my loves. Take care of yourselves 💗

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Although the flight was only a couple of hours long, it still felt like forever before you finally touched down.

You reached into your pocket to grab your phone as it vibrated repeatedly as text after text came in.

I saw the plane land!

I'm inside waiting for you, my love

The two texts were from Billie and seeing them only made you more antsy to be in her arms.

Your feet moved quickly as you stepped inside the airport and looked all around to see where to go and where she was, hoping to spot her pretty face through the crowd of strangers that kept sending you curious glances as you looked past them.

All you wanted was to get to her, more desperate and anxious to feel her warm and safe arms wrap around you.

You eventually found where you were supposed to go and after a moment, you heard a very familiar voice calling out for you.

"Y/N!"

It was as if no one else existed after that.

Once you turned your head and saw Billie coming over to you, though she wasn't holding you just yet, you finally felt safe.

You could finally relax and breathe, as if you had managed to escape the prison you thought you'd be locked inside of until she returned home weeks or months from now.

A breath of relief left your lips, your heart pounded against your chest, and you ran over to her as fast as you could.

"Hi, baby,"

She spoke the words right into your ear and her voice was more heavenly than ever before.

"I'm so happy you're here."

Finally.

Finally, you were safe and secure.

You were home at last.

"Thank you."

She could feel you trembling while quiet and devastating sobs leaving your lips as you spoke those two words and it left her a little confused.

"Why are you thanking me?" She wondered and felt your grip on her tighten slightly.

"For having me come here to you. This is exactly what I've been needing."

She laid her chin on your shoulder as her nails gently brushed along your skin, soothing you.

"Oh, baby,"

"I needed you so much. I love you."

"I love you too. I've got you now, okay? You're safe. You'll be okay."

She pulled back and gently cupped your cheeks in her warm, soft hands.

"I just need to look at you."

You let out a shaky breath before your eyes locked.

Hers had been full of worry ever since she awoke to your anxious voice but now, they were soft and a little starry because she didn't feel so concerned now that she could hold you and keep you safe.

"There's a car outside. We're going to go back to the hotel and cuddle and, if you want to, we can talk. We can talk about everything that's been bothering you or, if you would rather talk about, well, anything else, we can. I'm keeping you by my side for a while. So we can talk about all of the things you want to do. We have a lot of places to go together so we'll have lots of fun. It'll get your mind off of everything."

You just wrapped your arms around her again and let one more tear fall from your eyes.

Billie could feel that you were less tense now as the weight of the loneliness and constant anxiety began to ease.

All it had taken was being back with her, back in the comfort of her arms.

"I'm sorry if I worried you a lot."

"It's okay. Baby, it's okay."

"Until now... it didn't feel okay. Nothing felt okay. I haven't had a good night's sleep in forever. I haven't eaten much and I haven't done anything productive in so long. I was just too anxious. I'd sleep a little while, maybe an hour or two, then I'd wake up being anxious and the cycle would just repeat endlessly and... I didn't think I'd make it through. I was in a prison, I was so desperate to escape from everything."

Hearing you open up about your darkest thoughts and the times you struggled so badly while she wasn't there with you crushed her.

It was like her heart shattered, it just ached so much to know that you were hurting so much and hadn't felt secure enough to open up to her until now.

"I thought it would never get better. But I think it has now. I know my anxiety won't ever loosen its grip on me completely but at least I'm with you again. I feel okay again. I feel safe."

"Good, baby, that's good. Because you are safe. I know how hard things can get sometimes and from now on, I don't ever want you to hold back or hide anything from me. Open up to me like this whenever you need me. I don't want you to hurt or to feel like everything is so out of control all the time. You're the most important thing in the world to me. I'd drop everything on this earth if you needed me."

You let any lingering anxiety fade as she peppered kisses across your head and when you pulled away, she saw the exhaustion in your eyes.

"Let's get to the hotel. We'll talk more and you can get some sleep. You need it and deserve it, darling,"

And, for the first time in a long time, you knew you'd finally get some good sleep.

Everything was going to get better and easier from here.