I WAS THERE, I THINK

you don't know you're dying.

you just rest more and run less, and look at me like i am still your world, even as mine starts to break.

your breath is slower now.

but it still fills the room like trust.

i watch your chest move the way people watch clocks
when they're late for something they can't name.

you don't ask for much- you never did.

just a spot on the floor and someone to come home.

you've seen every version of me and never flinched.

when i cried, you never asked why.

you taught me that love can live in silence.

in presence.

in the way your body leans toward mine even in sleep.

i don't know how to make peace with the idea that
one day you will not be here to forgive me for everything.

i am already missing you in moments you are still in.

i love you like the end is already happening.

and i hope you never have to feel any of it.