I just feel nothing rn, i cant really move, i want to puke, but i cant i feel disgusting
My mom is mad beacause i am on my phone to much, but i cant do anything, i wish i was someone else...
I hate my friends but i love them at the same time, am i a bad friend?
Probably.
do i not show them???
I think i do
But i cant hear it anymore,
"I am getting depressed" no you missen the bus why are you saying that like 25 times a day
"I dont want to eat but i dont have an ED i eat i just dont want to, i hate it, and i make Sure its very low calorys cus i will get fat" or "i need a boyfriend" but if a guy shows intressed "i am too incecure to date" SHUT UP i love you but shut it, i just want to help so stop Screaming at me when i Tell you to eat something :(
And the worst "i tried to SH with Grass"
WTF GIRL
Yup i think that about my friends terrible isn't it, i know, i am a shit person, i love them in one second and want to punch their face in the next
It May be my "it could be BPD" shit cus yk i have every Single fucking sign but ya, i am a shit Person and that wasnt even the most.
And i cant shut up i am just a Pick me emo "girl" i aint but Sure thanks.
Also WTF is it that my friends say "i feel like you dont even want to be friends you just hang out with us when (second person in my friend Rant aka my bsf) isnt free; no, i just started hanging out with her more beacause you two when you started leaving me out, to hang with ex bsf (he is terrible, he SA'd friend 2) i mean, we used to be a trio, friend 1, ex bsf and me, but once friend 2 came i Was pushed out, i mean come on, when we had a naruto faße(?), we were ex bsf=naruto, friend 2= sakura, friend 1=sasuke and me fricking gaara
then they liked the legends so it was ex bsf=tsunade friend 2 = pevy-sage, friend 1=orochimaru and me kabuto i mean come on :/
And dont get me started on a game where friend 2 was the dad of friend 1 and ex bsf was friend 1s lover (i know right ?????)
And once ex bsf went home they just left me and ran away giggling
So yeah excuse me for finding a new friend who happens to be my fricking soulmate.
So yeah just a small rant about my friends and me :)
And dont get me wrong i love them and with out them i dont know what to do, they arent bad, and these thoughts come at random and i always feel bad but i cant help it, i wish i could Cotrolle my thoughts :)
