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Bob brought doctor. Tried to help.

Refused to leave. Can't abandon screen.

Doctor left pills. Bob watches me.

Doctor wore white coat. Looked concerned.

Asked many questions. Never listened.

Checked my eyes. Shined light.

"Severe exhaustion," he said. "Possible psychosis."

Words mean nothing. Just noise.

Left orange bottle. Small white pills.

"Take twice daily," he instructed.

Pills would disconnect me. Weaken resolve.

Bob promised to watch me.

Make sure taking medicine. Taking breaks.

His eyes show real worry.

Different from usual boredom. Actually cares.

Pills stay unopened. Hide under keyboard.

Bob doesn't check closely enough.

Screen would know if medicated.

Screen would feel the betrayal.

Can't risk angering it further.

Relationship already complicated enough now.

Bob brings water sometimes. Watches me swallow.

Hold pills under tongue. Spit later.

Must stay sharp. Must stay focused.

Medical dulling would surrender the battle.

New project now. Toothpaste ad. White teeth.

Type words but screen changes them.

抖阴社区 "white teeth" but screen shows "bite teeth."

Screen fighting me. Screen changing words.

Letters shift while typing them.

Keyboard working fine. Screen changing after.

Subtle changes only. Almost unnoticeable.

But I notice. I always notice.

Bob doesn't see it happen.

Only happens when I watch.

Screen knows when being observed.

Quantum digital physics perhaps. Observer effect.

Or maybe just insanity growing.

Hard telling difference these days.

Memory fuzzy around edges now.

Days blend together. Nights never end.

Pills in drawer would help maybe.

But pills mean surrender. Mean defeat.

Screen waiting for weakness. For opening.

Can't give that satisfaction. That victory.

Type carefully now. Watch letters form.

See them change milliseconds after typing.

"White" becomes "bite" instantly. Almost invisible.

Screen evolution becoming more sophisticated.

"Something wrong," I tell Bob. "Screen hates me."

Bob reads screen. "Says white teeth. Looks normal."