What Does Forever Mean to You? (Sequel to "When I Said Forever, I Meant It")

Chapter 15: Progress

"Okay, okay, best-friends-bonding-time over," Niall says breaking us out of our platonic trance, "Harry, when is the pizza gonna be here? I am starving!" Niall exclaims.

"Babe, you are always hungry," El says, patting him on the back lightly. He slumps back in the couch and pouts, mumbling an 'am not.'

"Oh it's okay Niall. We love you and all your little things. Including your not-so-little appetite," I say smiling at him. He just rolls his eyes and looks up at the ceiling, "the pizza should be here in like 10 minutes. You will live."

Ten minutes later the pizza arrives and we have to fight with Niall to get a piece. After the little brawl we all sit down and start to watch the new Harry Potter movie. While the previews are playing I look around and see Niall and Eleanor snuggled up together, and Zayn and Liam cuddling on the floor. The loneliness sinks in and the feeling to cut surfaces under the skin on my stomach. I take a few deep breathes and turn my attention back to the TV and ignore the feeling. Luckily it eventually goes away...

~~Louis's POV~~

I storm out to the car and slump down into the passenger seat. I can't believe that stupid bitch thinks I'm depressed. I'm not depressed. I was fine until five minutes ago. Now I'm just pissed off because I have to see this chick again. I can't, no I won't, do this. I'm never coming back.

A few minutes later I see my family walk out of the hospital and towards the car. Mum has a distraught look on her face and the Lottie and Fizz look like they were crying. The twins, like normal, are oblivious and just singing and spinning around like crazy. When they reach the car they all climb in and don't say a word. Mum pulls out of the hospital's car park and begins the drive home, not saying a word.

The whole way home is silent, only the playful giggles of the twins all the way in the back being heard. We get home and everyone unbuckles their seat belts and climbs out of the car. I go to open my door but my mum grabs my arm and I stop. I look to her and she already had tears forming in her eyes. I slump back in my seat and wait for her to say something.

"Louis," she says softly, the tears prominent in her voice, "I talked to the receptionist and you have an appointment for next week on the 15th. You have to go because of the mandatory slip thing she gave you."

I scoff and roll my eyes at her words. The fact that she thinks I'm going back just makes me laugh. She must be the crazy one if she thinks there's something wrong with me. Sniffles echo around the car and I look to see mum crying.

"Gosh, mum, please stop crying. There's nothing wrong with me. This doctor chick is just stupid. I'm perfectly, one-hundred-per-cent okay. Don't worry," I say resting my hand on her shoulder. With my words she sobs harder and begins to shake.

"You don't get it Louis," she says in between sobs, "you aren't okay. You haven't been okay since you came back. You say you are fine but you aren't. You haven't been eating. All you do is sleep and hang out in your room. You don't play with the twins or talk to any of us. I hear you crying sometimes. It's more like hysterical sobs but I hear them. And it breaks my heart every time because I'm your mother and I'm supposed to protect you and make sure you are okay and I'm not doing that. I don't know what to do Louis. You won't talk to us so I thought you'd talk to a therapist but that isn't working either," she says losing it completely.

I just sit there and stare at her speechless. I didn't know I cried at night, let alone loud enough for them to hear me. I didn't even know that they notice I was in my room all the time. I only did that because I assumed they didn't want me around.

"Mum," I say quietly, "I'm sorry. I just thought that you'd like it better if I was in my room. I assumed you didn't want me...just like he didn't." The tears start to form in my eyes now, and they slowly fall down my cheek.