I'm back

After a few days of laying in bed I couldn't find the will power or energy to get up out of the fettle position I was lying in . I was busy replaying memories from when I was younger . I thought of all the times my father made me laugh , cry , smile and shout . He had made me feel every emotion within my 14 years with him .

I was interrupted from my thought multiple times all by different people , the first time was Opie then Jax , Juice and finally Gemma . Gemma was way more demanding than the others when it came to knocking on doors .

I shuffled over to the door after finding a pair of male sweatpants in the drawer , not caring whos they are . I unlocked the door and opened it a little before walking back over to the bed and climbing under the covers , resuming the position I was in previously .

"Hey sweetheart , we thought you had died on us" Gemma said , trying to lighten the mood , closing the door but not locking it .

"Yeah and what if I had died?" I answered , barely whispering.

"Been known to wake the dead" she replied . Somehow I didn't think she was kidding.

"What do you want Gemma?" I whisper , digging my head under the covers , trying to get away from reality, hoping this was a nightmare I would wake up from .

"Everyone's worried about ya , why don't you come out and get something to eat ? I know there's no food in here so that proves you haven't ate in a few days"

"Really don't feel like eating right now Gemma . Can you just leave please" my voice broke at the end , pain evident in my voice.

"Not until you shower , change and eat something" she says , grabbing my hands from where they were holding my stomach.

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1 hour later

"Hey there she is!" I heard Clay yell as I headed over towards the couch .

I didn't bother to reply to anyone's hellos as I sat down facing the wall behind the couch.

"What's she doin' " I heard the new prospect ask Opie or someone in particular.

"She used to do it when she was younger too . Said she did it whenever she wanted to think in a crowded room , that people thought she was to weird and would leave her alone" Jax explained .

By the time someone came over to sit down tears were already streaming down my face . The person beside me pulled me into a awkward side hug , letting me cry on his chest .

After half an hour of crying I pulled away to see a very wet t-shirt belonging to Happy , I mumbled a 'sorry' and stood up , turning around to head towards the bar .

"Don't ya think it's a bit early for a drink lass?" Chibs calls out from the other side of the bar .

"Don't give a shit Chibs , tired of crying to I'm gonna drown my sorrows with the next best thing , alcohol" I say , popping the cap if the bottle .

"Whoa wait a sec lil sister , you're only 19 , still under age at the moment" Opie says , grabbing the bottle .

"Dude from what I've heard you've been in some illegal shit , do you really care if I drink underage?" I say , reaching for my bottle . He lifts it above his head .

"Not really but we don't want to loose our license for booze" sometimes I hate his height

"Fine then" I mumble , walking back over to the couch and facing the wall again .

I sat there for what seemed like forever before the crow eater I broke the nose of busted through the door . It's about to get interesting in here...