Bucket list 101

Let me keep this simple. (SPOILER ALERT: I TRIED)

This part, about "our story", was supposed to be a story about the adventures I have with two of my closest friends, the best kind of friends I could ever ask for.

Sadly, it turns out that I was wrong. Life happens. Things don't go as plan, and sometimes, all you can do is just accept it. Not because you didn't try hard enough, but because some things just can't be controlled.

What happened is, one of my friend got into a relationship. Believe me, I am really happy for her. We both are. But things took a wrong turn when she started to spend less time with us, and soon, her world became his.

Not that I am criticizing their relationship, or that I wish they would break up, but I really wish that things didn't get to where it is now. I wish we still had a chance to see you, talk to you, hell, I just wish we were still friends.

All I ask for, is not interaction, just some sort of communication or connection is fine by me. I don't know what happened to us, what changed in you. Did he poison you? Do you think I am not good enough to be your friend anymore? Because I am not as "high class" as you now that you are with him, a rich guy?

No matter how much I hate texting or talking to people first, I did that. All for you. And the worst part? You answer to me by privating all your social media accounts. And after months of me following and unfollowing you, you still ignore that little bling and go on with your life. Like that bling was never there.

Also, you are not as dominant as you think you are. You always say you will have a say in relationships, that you will never follow the other party like a, and I quote from you, "sick little puppy". Ha, jokes on you, you are doing exactly that. It can be both a good and bad thing. Mostly bad though.

You are the one who told me to stand strong against people. You are the one who helped me through when is was crushed by my first love. You are the one who helped me through when I was betrayed by my friend. You are the one to teach me to fly when I can't even stand. You were the one. I thought our friendship was stronger than this.

I don't know. I don't know anymore. It seems that our friendship is broken because of yet another relationship. And there is nothing we can do to fix it. I hope one day you wake up from this slumber and realize that you do need friends. And I will be that friend, who will stand by you even when everyone is walking away.

Please don't walk away. It is fine if we had a huge fight, or if we have some differences. But please, don't turn your back because you saw something you thought you want but never need.

No, I am not begging you to stay. People may see it like that, but to me, it is just me asking a friend to not turn into that one person everyone said you would be. I am so afraid you would.

We were a trio, but the other one had already given up on you. We were supposed to uncover the world together, to learn what is love and experience heartbreaks together. Not only have you learn love and us learn the heartbreak.

This is just a message, that I have, and never, will give up on you. I believe in you. One day, you will be great. One day. As a friend, and as a sister. One day.

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I am writing this not because I am asking for sympathy or whatever. It is just me ranting and writing about my feelings for a friend. Each friendship is like a relationship to me. I hope one day when I look back at this, I will laugh and joke about it, because I would be looking at this with you and the other friend.

To our friendship :)