Rolling Girl ~Based On The Song By Miku Hatsune ~

January 2016

Hello. My name is Italia. Yeah I know, strange name but that's it. I know you probably don't want to listen to me rant on about this all. But oh well. Oh well. If you don't like me you can go, I'm used to being ignored after all.

Well, 2015 was a strange year for most people and like everyone else I always would say: "2015 sucks!! I wish it was 2016 already!". Boy do I regret those words now. 2015. The year that I got saved from 4 years of depression. However, it's coming back. I know I'm climbing that hill that I keep falling from again and again and again. It's pathetic.

Why was it a fantastic year you ask? Why do I realise it now you ask? Good questions. They'll be answered. But I'll warn you, you may not understand or think that I'm being babyish. I assure you it's more complicated than you think. Where do I start? There's so much I could recall... Well. Shall we start at the beginning? But where is the beginning you ask.. I'm not sure. The beginning could be when I was born around 14 years ago. It could be the beginning of my saviour pulling me out of the ocean I call depression. Or it could be when I started to slip back into the waves..

Ahh.. Good question.. Why is the title: 'Rolling Girl' you ask? Well, you may not of heard the song: Rolling Girl by Hatsune Miku. Of course if you don't have the same music preferences as me then you haven't. I'm listening to the English version right now. Yes yes yes I know I'm very very pathetic.

The most common interpretation of the song is that there is a girl who's got very bad depression, it tells the story of her trying to assure herself that she's "Fine" whilst she tries to overcome her depression however she falls repeatedly. In the end of the song a friend comes to help her, in which the song ends without you knowing what happens to the girl.

I thought this song related to me in many ways, the fact I like anime and YouTube and games a lot yet I'm not considered a 'Weeb' or 'Otaku'. The fact I'm not well liked in my year group at school. I have friends yet their mostly in the year below me.. But most of all, my love for roleplaying, my love for the fictional games I can pretend I live in. It may sound really weird but I love it.. However. The person I care most for on the internet. The person I hope to meet this year (Yes I know she's my age and I know she's not faking it and I have proof). The person I love to roleplay with and talk to so much.

I fear I'm going to loose that person this year. And that person saved me. I can't bear to loose that person.

So... Is that a start? Do you understand kinda? That's OK if you don't. It'll all be explained eventually. Yet I wonder, is this story going to be my final downfall or my second saviour.. Will she read this perhaps? Only time will tell.

So that was chapter 1! I hope you all liked it and are all having a fantastic day! :3