My Allay

"Where have you been?!" Joe snaps at me.

"Sorry, Joe. I've been busy lately and I didn't have time to see....."

"Do you never sleep at night?!"

I gasp. "Oh, I forgot. Shit. Shit. Shit."

"I forgot, is not good enough, Mia."

"Look, Joe I'm so sorry. Is there any way you can forgive me?"

"No!" Joe snaps. I smile and walk up to him and kiss him on the cheek. He smirks at me. "That'll do fine."

"Good," I smile. "I didn't want us having a fight, you mean to much to me."

Joe sighs. "And you mean too much to me too, Mia."

I smile back at him. "I know."

"Don't ever leave me," he says, looking at my entire face, but mainly do using on my eyes and lips.

"I won't, Joseph Sugg," I tell him.

"That's not very convincing Mia Deakin," Joe tells me.

"Well, what will make you gratified that I truly love you with all my heart?" I ask him.

Joe wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me into him. I feel a little guilt in my stomach because I'm messing around with Joe, but yet I'm dating Liam. But I can't help it. I don't feel so much love for Liam as I do for Joe. Joe is my one and only. I can feel a really special connection between us two, a spark, you could say, but another spark is broken when me and Liam "connect".

Joe's love just satisfies what I truly crave and makes me feel like I'm part of this world. It's crazy how he makes me feel, one person, it's amazing. I've never had this feeling about anyone or anything in my life before. Joe means so much to me. More than I probably know he does.

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Back in reality I'm still enjoying Liam's company. He is very intelligent and interesting. I feel really intrigued by him.

"I love you, Mia," Liam tells me.

"I love you too, Liam," I respond to him. He looks me right in the eye with a daring smile. I smile back at him and look down at the ground with the slightest bit of embarrassment.

"You ok?" he asks me. I immediately look up at him in awe. "Yeah, why?"

"It's just that you didn't really seem yourself today," he explains.

"Oh......really?" I mutter before looking down at the ground again. I can't distract myself from daydreaming about Joe. Is it weird to be as obsessed with a person as much as I'm obsessed with Joe? I should think so.

"Hey, tell you what," Liam says, standing up. My eyes watch his every move. Liam holds his hand out to me. "Let's go on a date."

I stare at his hand. I feel a wave of emotions come over me, all at once. I feel pressured. I feel happy. I feel dared. I feel mysterious. I feel scared. I feel anxious. I feel depressed. I feel love. I feel welcomed. I feel.....Joe. But this isn't real life, not my fake, imaginary world. That isn't Joe's hand, it's Liam's. My boyfriend in reality. The only boy who cares about me who isn't officially in my family.