Self Destruction // Oliver Sykes

Warning: Drug Use [kind of, not really, though]

Title Credit- Underdog by You Me At Six

Song: Guts by All Time Low

~Oliver~  

I woke up the next morning from the loud music playing from downstairs. I tried sitting up but soon realized that a pair of tiny arms were wrapped around my tall frame. I also noticed that I lying naked under the covers. I turned my head slightly and froze once I saw Miranda sleeping peacefully next to me. She had on one of my shirts but I'm sure that's all she had on.  

Imagines from last night began replaying in my head and I remembered exactly what had happened. I had sex with Miranda last night. Fuck, what am I going to tell Lily?.... Wait, am I even going to tell her? I mean, I love her but things have been weird between us lately. She seems to have a better time when she's with Ben than when she's with me.  

Sure, I tried to make her jealous a little by hanging around Miranda but obviously, that didn't work. I don't know why I thought it would... Dammit, I don't even know where our 'relationship' stands.... or should I say 'stood' because I know Lily's going to break up with me once she finds out what I did.  

I grabbed my boxer briefs and quickly pulled them on before quietly removing Miranda's arms from my waist and crawling out of the bunk. I checked the time and saw that it was nine over here in Connecticut which mean that it was probably around six over in Los Angeles.  

I looked through the messages that Lily had sent me yesterday and saw that she had something important she needed to tell me. My curiosity began to grow as I pressed Lily's contact name and dialed her number. The line rang about three time before she finally answered.  

"Hello?" She yawned into the line. Fuck, now I feel bad for waking her up. Well, I'm going to feel worse once I tell her that I had sex with our merch girl.  

"Hey, Lily. It's me, Oli. What did you need to tell me?" I asked, getting straight to the point. I'll tell Lily what happened after she tells me what was so important that she didn't stop sending me messages last night. I probably would have replied sooner if it weren't for Miranda.  

"Oh, well you see.." She began, I was easily able to tell that she was nervous about something. Okay, now I definitely need to know. "Ben.. he um, yesterday when we were at the airport he u-um.." She continued to mumbled. Honestly, I was growing impatient and just wanted her to tell me what the Hell she's so nervous about.  

"Ben kissed me.... and I didn't push him away." Lily stated, the sadness and regret apparent in her tone.  

My jaw clenched in anger. Ben kissed Lily... and she didn't push him away? Is she fucking serious right now?  

"I have to go." I snapped before hanging up. I threw my phone on the couch and stormed off back into the bunk area. I know, I have no right to be angry at Lily for not pushing him away but I can't help it. I'm a jealous wanker, alright?  

I crawled back into my bunk and discovered that Miranda was already awake. She was rubbing her tired eyes while in the middle of yawning. "Oli-" She began but I cut her off by crashing my lips against hers.  

I know, this is wrong. This is definitely wrong and I shouldn't be doing this but right now.. I honestly don't give a fuck anymore.  

~Ben~  

"Dammit, Danny, don't hog it all!" I laughed as I grabbed the small tube from Danny's hands. He chuckled quietly before leaning back on the black couch. I leaned closer to the table and snorted the new line of cocaine. It's only nine thirty in the morning, we have to play a show later but we're going to get fucked up for now.  

Today is our last day sharing a bus. Once we go to Ohio tomorrow, we're all getting our own tour bus. That way- we wont want to kill each other by the end of the tour. I think getting separate tour buses is probably the best idea for now. Mostly because I can't stand being around that twat, Oliver. I don't exactly hate Oli, I just hate how he's acting like a cunt towards Lily. I swear, if I was with her; I would never treat her like that, ever.  

Luckily, Lily comes back from Los Angeles tomorrow. I can't wait to see her beautiful face again. I just hope she isn't too angry at me for kissing her at the airport. I doubt she is because she didn't push me away. Honestly though, I don't know what came over me when I did that. I was just so tired of seeing the hurt in Lily's eyes. I was tired of seeing her upset over the fact that Oli would rather hang out with Miranda rather than her. I was fucking tired with it.  

"Oi, we're all out of weed, mate!" Matt exclaimed, tossing me the empty bag of marijuana. I chuckled quietly before getting up from the couch and walking upstairs. I started walking towards my bunk when suddenly, I heard quiet moaning coming from Oli's bunk. What the hell? Is that twat wanking in his bunk at nine thirty in the morning?  

No... wait, that's a female's voice! What the fuck? The only other girl on this bus is... Miranda. Holy shit.  

I let my curiosity get the best of me as I looked through the slight opening in Oli's curtain. My eyes widened and my suspicions were confirmed. That fucking wanker is cheating on Lily with Miranda! Fucking idiot, doesn't he know how good he has it? He doesn't deserve to have someone like Lily in his life.  

My jaw clenched in anger as I quickly grabbed my bag of marijuana from my bunk before hurrying downstairs. I shoved the bag of weed, my pipe and my lighter inside the pocket of my jacket before putting on my shoes and quickly leaving the bus.  

I pull my hood over my head and start walking towards one of the parks that wasn't too far from the venue. I sat in a secluded area in the park and pulled out my bag of marijuana, my pipe and my lighter.

As I was preparing that, I felt my anger quickly beginning to rise. Oli doesn't realize how lucky he is. Lily is a bloody model, she has a beautiful face and an incredible body. She's funny, smart and she seems willing to try anything. She's a nice person but can throw a punch when needed. She's so fucking perfect and Oli doesn't fucking see that because he too blinded by Miranda.  

Oli doesn't see how perfect Lily is but I do.  

I'm not going to tell Lily what happened. I'm going to let her find out for herself. She's a smart woman, she'll figure out soon enough how much of a cunt Oli actually is. All I have to do is wait for that moment to come.

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GUYS I FEEL LIKE I MADE A LOT OF MISTAKES IN THIS CHAPTER SO IF YOU SEE ANY MISTAKES- FEEL FREE TO POINT THEM OUT. K bye