How to be

"I don't wanna talk about it" I answered him pulling his arm up and getting closer so he could hug me.

It's 6:00 in the morning and he is up? No thank you.
"We said that after cleaning you, you would talk about it. I didn't ask you last night because I wanted you to sleep." He said in a serious tone.

"You need a hair cut." I said
I was trying not just to change the topic but to clear my mind. Nothing could make me forget what happened even if I tried harder.

I closed my eyes and inside I herd not just myself screaming but him. His voice was stuck in my head. I couldn't get it out.

I closed my eyes harder trying not to remember but it was still there. Even if I was drunk it was still there.

Then a huge headache came up and I groaned.
I just can't believe this happened.

"Chloe Elizabeth Morgan, I'm talking to you. " Nick said and I sat down.

I think I ignored him the whole time. Ups!

"What?!" I said and just then a huge wave of nauseas hit me. I immediately stood up breathless and then ran to the bathroom.

My body hurt everywhere, inside and out. I felt how every muscle of my body prepared for me to puke. It was disgusting. My whole body pushed me to vomit on the toilet. I couldn't breath. I felt for a moment like if I was dying.

I herd Nick running to me but my body was to busy making me puke.

"Oh my Go- Chloe" he said grabbing my hair into a pony tail.

I kept vomiting until I had nothing on my stomach to get out.

"Shhh it's okay, I'm here." He said rubbing my back.

After a few minutes I finished. My hands where grabbing the edges of the toilet and my body trembled every few seconds.

I was exhausted. I flushed the toilet and kept looking down. He staid there rubbing my back.  "It's okay, I'm here." He said helping me get up and walking me to the sink in where I have a toothbrush of my own in his bathroom.

I carefully brushed my teeth and as soon as the toothpaste touched my lips I groaned. It was burning my lips so I hurried and finished.

I looked at the mirror and saw all the bruises and my eyes watered.

How did this happened to me?

"Hey.. Come here, let's talk" Nick said and I started crying.

"Chloe?" He said and touched my arm slowly.

"Don't touch me please" I said crying.  "Just go away." I said crying harder.

"Chloe this is my apartment, I can't go!" He said and I realized it's true.

I slowly stood on my feet and walked to his couch

I have to say.. I felt less pain than last night.

After a few hours I fell asleep on the couch and I herd a noise.

Maybe is nothing I convinced myself and fell asleep again.

But few minutes later I heard it again.

I opened my eyes and sat down. Everything was blurry so I closed my eyes and I roughly rubbed them with my hands.

Few seconds later I felt a hand on my neck and a really creepy laugh. A familiar laugh.

"You are going to die" a masculine voice said and I screamed.

"Please don't, don't hurt me again"

I cried with the eyes closed I didn't want to look.

He touched my arm and I screamed again.

"Chloe" I herd him and screamed. "Please" I cried.

"Chloe! Open your eyes" he shakes me hard  and I realized is not the same voice.

I opened my eyes immediately and saw my best friend and I immediately hugged him.

I couldn't even breath I was in so much pain and shock, it felt so real.

He hugged me back and slowly rubbed my back. "Shh I'm here now, don't cry"

As much as My body didn't want to hug him my head my mind my all hugged him tightly.

I forced myself not to cry and I looked at him directly on his eyes.

"I- I was" I stopped and took a deep breath.

"You what?" He asked slowly cleaning off a tear on my cheek.

I slowly talked. "When I was walking back to the building I wrongly walked alone i- in the parking lot an- and it was so dark an-and" I slowly started crying again. "I tried to get away from him but" he opened his eyes wider looking directly on my eyes when my voice started cracking.

"What Chloe?" He asked not moving a muscle.

"I.. He raped me"