I'm in the world of DeathNote?

In the morning, I woke up with a horrible headache. My eyes were blurry and my brain felt like it was crashing against my scull to forget about everything involved with L. Images of him buried themselves in my head and I sighed, falling back on the soft mattress in hopes of falling back asleep.

As I fell, I caught sight of a small scribbled note attached to the bedside table. It was from L.

Arashi,
The task force and I have acquired new information. They went out to search for new leads and Light and I are heading out to search for Misa. Matsuda suggested a cup of coffee, so that's downstairs, hopefully not too cold yet. We'll be back later tonight, stay in your room and wait.

~L

I scoffed lightly. I've never been very obedient, so I stood up on shaking legs and laughed goofily as the room spun.

Once I blinked the sleep out of my eyes, I grabbed a small bag that just so happened to be tossed in the corner, and started stuffing things into it. My phone (which was turned off), my wallet, some Tylenol and sleep pills, because apparently L didn't bother to take those with the Advil, and lastly, my emergency cigarettes.

Because, this is an emergency.

I silently put on a pullover and some grey jeans, before slipping on my black converse and sliding out the door. Behind me, I heard my note flutter, and I stopped to walk back and read it over again.

To the task force and L,

I'm going to be leaving. For a while, I mean, so I can clear my head and relax. Don't come looking for me, because if I do anything irrational, I don't want you to see it. Sooner or later you'll find me.

~Arashi

I sighed softly before pivoting and walking out the door.

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When I got to the bridge, I had a few extra items on me. I had stopped to buy a case of beer and with it, I dragged along something I had stopped and gotten from my house. I snuggled into my brothers shirt with a sigh of content, because even in this world, I knew it would be where I always kept it.

So I sat slowly, on the small edge of the bridge, propping my arms and head over the small railing. I grabbed a few Tylenol, enough so I couldn't feel, and popped them in, washing the taste away with beer.

Quickly, day faded to night, yellow to orange to a piercing scarlet red, and I looked down on the beautiful firefly-like lights of the city.

I started to cry a bit, holding Akai's Flash shirt to my face. I let out a bitter laugh through my tears. "You really did love your superheroes didn't you, Akai?"

My arms began to tingle and I looked at them. They had started to bleed again from the harsh metal railing scraping against them.

I downed another beer can before standing up carefully and stepping over to the even smaller edge.

I just stood there holding Akai's shirt, breathing in the warm breeze.

"I really just want to be with you again Akai. I always have. You took so much from dad for me. You protected me and we had a bond that even death can't break. I just want to hug you again, to go back in time and step up for what was meant for me. You were the prodigy, the amazing one, and I wasn't. I deserved it but I didn't get it, and you did. You were so amazing and kind and beautiful. I miss you so much, and I'm so alone without you. I just want to be with you again..."

I swear I saw some people looking at me weirdly and I just continued to cry. Then, my foot began to slip. I screamed and grasped back for the railing, my fingers clutching tightly around it.

Then I stopped, I breathed slowly and looked down at the slightly rippling waters.

"I could be with you Akai." I whispered softly to myself. I took off my pullover, slipping Akai's shirt over my white tank top.

I felt myself being leaned forward slightly and I closed my mouth tightly to prevent a startled gasp.

Then I let go.

~~~~~~~Hi guys!!!!!~~~~~~~~

I'm having a really horrible time in my life right now! But writing is somehow very helpful to me? So I'm going to be writing up a lot of stuff for a lot of different stuff.

But it'll probably be depressing, so don't you dare even complain to me in the comments. I'm having a horrible time lately, and I've been seriously upset lately.

Thanks for reading, and I didn't edit or reread this, so also don't complain about that please.