WHY MATT?? [MATTXMELLO] {BOYXBOY}

after i recieved that letter i just felt like things werent right i really did this to matt, i got on my bike and went back to our apartent everything was wrong why did i leave him? why did i leave matt of all people?i ran upstairs to our appartment opening the door "matt!!!" i yelled over and over until i reached our living room. thats when i saw him dangeling from the ceilling fan.i cut him down holding him close to my chest. i found out it was too late he wasnt breathing. he didnt have a pulse. i just missed him i was too late to save my best friend. to save the guy i had fallen in love with so any years ago. i knew i had just missed him his skin was still warm. i tried to stop the tears from falling but i couldnt stop them i kept holding the other male closer to me. thats when i looked to the table and saw another letter.