Travis x Reader (Book 2)

This is a huge warning, this chapter is gonna contain really hard situations. Now if you have Beene in any of them like... Those types of stuff........ I say do not and I mean do not read this chapter, thank you.
And P.S I was so dumb that you had a brother in the first story of you want I can put it back in or I can just leave it to B/N.

Things to look out for
Y/N- your name
F/N- fake name

Your POV

A year later
( whoa a huge time skip nothing really huge happened )

I always faked my smiles faked my happiness, especially my feelings I was always empty but it all changed all because of Travis, but since he was with another woman the old Y/N came back, nothing will changed, nothing will become better no more light, no more laughter and no more.... Happiness.

I woke up from bed and walked to my kitchen and opened my blinds that were in the kitchen I watched a family of birds on a tree, and the sun shining on them, I went outside to my front yard and looked through my letterbox, I saw letters in it from maybe fans or maybe bills, even though I have money nothing will make it better. I went back inside and sat on my couch, I scratched my arm and looked at the first one and opened it.

To: F/N
From: Christina

Dear F/N,
If you are reading this thank you for your time, as you can see my name is Christina and I am a fan of your work, you make it look so easy! You are very pretty and I can never miss out a video you post, you make the sun shine brighter with your happiness and your singing, I hope you can be the number one singer I believe in you.
From: Christina

Happiness........

A knock was a heard from my door, I walked to my door and opened it, it was Katelyn and Aphmau and with Kawaii~chan with F/F cookies.

KC- hey Y/N~chan! Kawaii~chan made cookies for you
Y- thank you Kawaii~chan
Aph- can we come in?
Y- sure
K- * sits on the couch when she is inside * so it's been a year now
Y- yeah?
Aph- are you okay?
Y- what do you mean?
Aph- well your more down than use to
KC- it worries us Y/N~chan
Y- well I might as well tell you

~flashback~
G- why don't you go die in a hole!
S- no wonder your family left you
Z- no one needs you
I was sitting there in anger and shocked
' maybe their right '
G- no wonder why Zane left the school to stay away from you
Y- STOP IT!
I was breathing heavily and shaking
' what have I done '
S- you made the wrong mistake
Z- you in for it now
~Endflashback~

Aph- wow I never knew they would be that mean, well when I was at there school they weren't like that
Y- I dropped out of school for that, but I mean before PDH they went to the same high school as I went to
KC- Kawaii~chan never knew you went through all that
K- what changed it?
Y- * whisper * Travis
Aph- sorry
Y- Travis
K-...
KC-...
Aph-...
Y- um.. I think you should go
Aph- are you sure I mean-
Y- yes... Please?
Aph- we will respect that, be safe

As they left I wanted to make a video to get to out of my head.
This song I am in love with it.

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that's what you want
Be your number one

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that's what you need
Be your everything

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

I'm only human
I'm only human
Just a little human

I can take so much
'Til I've had enough

'Cause I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human....

............

I stopped the video and edited it tear slowly fell out my eyes, it made everything in front of me blurry and weak, I was shaking uncontrollably and closing my eyes shut. One of my hands grip on my hair softly. Whispering lyrics slowly.

I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Oh

Tears were flowing down my face I gripped on my hair more harder and let my elbows rest on my table, I started to sob things like.

It will be alright....

It's okay....

Everything will turned out right.....

Promise....

I feel like my world becoming smaller, being in a dark place no one knows about.

I am so sorry if this story is terrible, tell me in the comments if I should continue this.
Just to tell you the brother in the first story died by a gun shot, now I changed it cause I forgot the story plot cause of my forget ness and was really focusing on the Zane x reader, now the name of your brother is Liam tell me if you want that as he's name or not, thank you for reading this and surviving through the horrible things I have been writing, stay strong my readers.
Author~chan