Is This Really What You Want? (Multiple Ship FanFic)

Well, welcome to hell everyone. The guys finally told me about Dallon because I kept pestering them about it. I knew something was up, but I just didn't think it'd be that... The one I love the most is in a coma... There's no telling when he'll be out of it, if ever.

I got out of the hospital a few days ago, and since then, I've had nothing but breakdowns and stress. I wanted to be there for Dallon, but I couldn't. I couldn't even will up enough courage to go and see him again. The first time I went, I completely broke down and couldn't stand to be in there anymore. Seeing his body just laying there looking dead killed me.

Even through all of this, we had another show to perform here in Nevada. Since Ryan and Jon were leaving, this was their last show with us. We came up with a song called Northern Downpour to sing as our last song to say goodbye. I broke down in the middle of the performance when I sang "I know the world's a broken bone, but melt your headaches, call it home." Ryan told me to pay attention to that lyric and I couldn't take it. I walked offstage and broke down again. This was the last time I'd be seeing Ryan and Jon... Things were terrible that day.

I've been staying at Spencer's again, but I just stay in my room all day, other then to go to the bathroom or grab something to eat, but I haven't been eating much. I haven't been eating because of the whole situation... I know that's not good, but I can't even find a point in it, or anything, anymore. I know I should stay strong for Dallon, but it's hard. I'm the reason he's in there and in a coma in the first place. If I hadn't been so stupid and tried to kill myself, then he'd be alright and here with me right now.

Breezy and Amelie are taking it hard too. Amelie doesn't exactly know what's going on, but she misses her dad, and we can all tell. I even overheard her one night crying and saying that she missed daddy. That broke my heart and I cried harder. It's my fault that she's without a father right now. It's my fault she can't kiss her dad goodnight. It's my fault she can't hug her dad when he comes home everyday. It's my fault.

I had just sat back down on my bed and started crying again. I got interrupted when the bedroom door opened. Spencer was standing there. He walked over and sat next to me.

"How are you doing?" he asked.

"How does it look like I'm doing?" I asked.

"Do you need anything?" he asked.

"No," I said.

"There is someone here that wants to see you," Spencer said.

"W-Who?" I asked.

"Ryan," he said.

"Why?" I asked.

"He heard about the whole situation and he wanted to make sure you were ok," he said. "I know you probably don't want to see him, but he's really worried about you."

"Fine," I said.

Spencer gave me a small smile and then walked out. He came back a few minutes later with Ryan trailing behind him. Spencer left us alone and Ryan walked in. He sat next to me and just hugged me.

"Why are you here?" I asked as I cried into his shoulder.

"I am worried about you and I wanted to make sure you were ok," Ryan said as he held me tighter.

"I'm really scared," I said. "What if he never wakes up?"

"Bren, Dallon is a strong guy. He's going to wake up. When, I don't know, but I know he will," he said.

Ryan was... Actually right. Dallon is one of the strongest people I know. He'll wake up. He'll wake up for him, for his family, for the people he loves. He can do it. He's going to fight this.

"You're right," I said.

"I'm here if you want to talk. I know Jon and I were dicks before, but I really do care about you and I'm here for you," Ryan said.

"Thanks," I said as I hugged him back again.

Ryan slept over that night just to make sure I was ok. I don't think he got a wink of sleep. He was watching over me the entire time. Even through everything we've been through, he was still protective over me, as I was of him. We had one of those bonds you couldn't break. It was something special.

Well, days turned into weeks again. Dallon still hadn't woken up, so all we can do is continue waiting...