Captain Swan - Breathe Again

Emma tried to find the words when Killian let her in. She couldn't begin to explain the feeling of the rejection, the hurt that she felt all over again. Maybe this was why she shouldn't have been so quick to start something new. Not that she didn't want this. She did. She wanted him so much it scared her. But when she was a shambled mess falling into the abyss, she didn't want to drag him down with her. He had his own life to take care of. He had his son and his own situation with his ex-wife. He didn't need her baggage too.

"Why don't you sit and tell me happened, love." His voice was soothing, his eyes full of wrecked worry. She nodded, another tear escaping her glossy eyes. Henry held onto her tightly, his head leaning on her shoulder. He didn't like seeing his mommy like this. And now he had a dad who chose another family over him. Her gut ached just thinking about it. She went into the living room and sat on the couch, Killian joining her side. "Can I get you anything?"

She shook her head. It wasn't possible to get time back... the time she had wasted with a complete bastard.

Killian was patient and kind as he waited for her to speak.

"Why don't you play with Liam, kiddo?" she kissed Henry's forehead and let him down.

Henry was reluctant at first as he looked back at her, not wanting to leave her embrace. So she gave him an encouraging smile but he still looked unsure.

"Come on little lad." Killian stood up and took his little hand, leading him to where Liam was playing with his toys. "You know Liam." He knelt down and patted a spot for Henry to sit. "It's okay, Henry. He doesn't mind sharing, right Liam?"

Liam handed Henry one of the blocks in his hand. "Good lad." Killian smiled and ruffled his son's hair before he stood up and took his seat next to Emma.

Emma smiled at him, feeling tears threatening her eyes again.

"What is it, love?" Killian turned his body to her, his arm on the edge of the couch behind her.

She took a breath before she could finally speak.

"Neal... he... " Emma bit back another tear, but she knew she wasn't going to be able to do this without crying. "Tamara is pregnant and they're engaged to be married."

"Oh, I'm sorry, love."

Emma realized her mistake right then. She could see the insecurity flashing in his eyes as his hand cupped her cheek, soothing it with his thumb. She offered more to the story to eliminate any misunderstanding. Her ex-husband getting remarried was not what tore her apart. "Killian, he gave up Henry up for his new family... for a house."

His eyebrows creased in confusion. "What do you mean, love?"

"He said that he would let me have full custody if I gave him the house."

Killian froze, not believing what he was hearing.

"You can't be serious? Did you agree to it?"

Emma nodded, a tear sliding down her cheek.

"How am I going to tell Henry that he had a father who broke up his family to be with someone else? How am I going to tell him that his father chose another family over him?" She felt the tears rush from her eyes, not being able to hold them back any longer. "He doesn't deserve this."

"Come here, sweetheart." Killian pulled his arms around her with one hand curled around her hip and the another on the back of her head, letting her cry on his chest as he held her close. She immediately felt comfort from his warm embrace and let herself sob uncontrollably into his shirt. He kissed the top of her head as he stroked her hair. "I'm so sorry, Emma."