Soon We'll Be Found.

Jess's POV.

"How could you do this to me!!" I could not believe what I was seeing right now." Jase, baby , tell me this is all a lie. Tell me its not your kid!" I grabbed Jason's collar with one hand and banged my fist on his hard chest with the other. He just stood there and took all the punches. Tears streaming down is cheeks one drop at a time. While mine flowed like an overflowing  river. I could tell from his eyes that it was all true.

This kid is his son. And he didn't have it with me. Its all real.

I know it was true but i still couldn't bring myself to believe it. He held my shoulders and pulled me into a hug. No matter how mad I was at him I couldn't bring myself to pull away from him.
  I rested my head in the crook of his neck while boulder-like sobs rocked my entire body.

I never thought in a million years that I'd be in this situation with Jason. I thought we were gonna be forever.

He promised he would.
All those nights he would whisper I'll love you forever, I have to wonder if they were just in vain.

I looked up at him and met his eyes. I asked one last time "Am I dreaming? You're joking aren't you?" I waited to see the humor spark in his. Instead he opened his mouth to speak but the words refused to flow so he closed it and shook his head.

I freed myself from his embrace and stepped away from him.
"Is- is it possible to ignore this and not allow it to destroy us?I love you,and I always will. I'm  a father now but i really need you by my side to handle this. I cant do this on my own baby. I need you by my side." He finally spoke up, his voice calm but filled with hope and  his eyes begging me to say yes.

But I couldn't it was just wrong.
"No ! I couldn't do it even if I tried. Because every time I look at you I'd only be able to remember just how much you betrayed me," I said with the same tone he used.

"I'll give it all up for you in the blink of an eye for you! My son, Emma . EVERYTHING! For you Jess . I love you !! You can't leave me!!" He lost his calm facade and grabbed my arm trying to pull me into another hug but I pulled away.

"Do you even realize how stupid you sound right now?" Now the anger was boiling up. "You would give it all up for me, take it all back. But yet you did it in the first place . You have a child Jason who needs his father and a baby mother who needs a father for her child. It would be unfair for me to allow you to not give your son the life he deserves. He needs a healthy family. And you need to be man enough to give him that.  I'm not gonna get between that. You made the mistake now you need to man up and own it!!"

"But, baby I ...."

"Stop, don't you dare say it," I interrupted him before he could finish knowing it would only add salt to my wound right now. "Its over, Jason ! We're done! Who knows? Maybe we'll be friends later on and I'll maybe accept to be his god mother when he is born. But I need time. I need space. I can't and I won't think about this right now. You hurt me and I don't think I'll ever be able to forget that!"

I grabbed my phone and purse and stormed out of his house. Wanting to leave all the memories we had there behind me. But they seemed to have followed me in my car as well. A part of me wished Jason would've followed me and try again to convince me to stay.

But it would be selfish of me to do that to his unborn child. He needs to be around his kid. If he's with me he's gonna avoid that child and his mother like the plague.

I know Jason well enough to know that's exactly what he'll do.

Flashbacks of all the time we spent together since our first date clouded my vision with tears.

I tried my best to stop the tears while I pulled out of the driveway.

I pressed down on the gas driving as fast as I could manage in this state, wanting to get as far away from Jason's house as possible as fast as I could've.

Why did you do this to us?
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I'm making the chapters a little shorter now.( sorry) but its the only thing I can do till I get over my writers block. Then I'd be able to write ton loads in my chapters.
Xoxo
See you next chapter ....maybe.