One Direction Preferences

Alright guys, so I haven't updated in a while, but that's for a lot of different reasons. The first one is school obviously. I am in 11th grade, and in the past couple of weeks, I have realized something. I have one more year of high school after this and then, BAM, I'm off to college. C O L L E G E. University, U.N.I, whatever you call it I am going to be there in a year or two. Most of my friends know exactly what they're doing and where they are going, and that is great! I am so happy for all of them! Me? Well...I don't have a damn clue. I've looked at a few Universities but none of them really motivate me to go to college. I don't look at any of them and think "Wow, college looks so great I can't wait!" In reality, it stresses me out. I hate talking about college. All of these adults in my life come up to me asking where I want to go, what I want to do, what my major is going to be, and I just have non answers for them. I have had so many anxiety attacks just talking to people about it. Not to mention, my grades are awful so that makes it so I can't even really go anywhere. 

Needless to say, I am  freaking out about that...

The second one is the feeling that I'm just not cut out for this. Yes, a lot of you guys LOVE my preferences. I get people on Instagram and Twitter actually telling me that they read my preferences and they make them so happy. I love to read comments and see the rates and the reads just sky rocket sometimes. It makes me feel like I am a less half-assed writer which I honestly feel like sometimes. But I myself am not cut out for just writing preferences and fanfics. If you don't already know this, then I will tell you now. I write in my free time too. I want to publish stories for a living. My biggest dream is to write a best seller. I can't see myself doing some boring job in a small cubical office. I want to be self employed. I don't want to take orders from someone else (at least I know that for sure. It seems like the only thing I know for sure.) I mean...I have a whole novel drafted and now I am just typing and editing it. Meanwhile these are just sitting here and you guys are probably wondering if I got kidnapped or murdered...or maybe I just fell asleep for a really long time I DON'T KNOW! 

So I guess it comes down to this, I am saying goodbye...for now. I mean I may come back here and write a preference or two just so I can get some practice in, but...my friends this is the end. For those who always commented and voted and read every single preference, I. LOVE. YOU. If it weren't for you guys, I probably would have stopped by like the 10th or so. I never expected them to blow up like this. I was expecting maybe one thousand all together, not at least one thousand reads on every single one of the preferences!!! That is insane!!! One million, almost TWO million reads all together!!!! Can you believe that?! I still can't...

It was fun. I really did enjoy writing for you guys, and maybe in the future I will again, but for now, I am finished with this. I may make another 抖阴社区 account just to write short stories or something like that, but I won't actually write my novel on here. I don't want anyone stealing it! But yeah, if in fact I do make another 抖阴社区 account, I will inform you, but please just remember that this isn't forever. This is just me moving on. I'm sorry, but we had a good run, right? Right. Thanks guys so much again, and I look forward to writing for you in the future :)