Call Of The Oblivious ? Joshler

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"He can't get you here." He whispered into my hair.

"What are we gonna do with you?" He hummed after a long moment and shook his head. He said something I didn't hear- ghostly whispering and grabbed my chin gently, forcing me to look up. 

He didn't say anything at all after. He just gazed into my eyes and i did the same. He rested his forehead to mine.

"Why do you stay with him?" He asked softly.

"I don't know." I replied, my voice cracking with emotion.

"He loves me" i whispered into his tear stained shirt.

Josh shook his head, eyes watering. "People who love you don't leave cigarettes burns on you like an ash tray Ty. They don't hurt you."

I nodded, forcing my eyes shut. "They always do josh. They alway hurt. It h-" i hiccuped. "It hurts so much."

I could remember every time he did it, grabbing my wrist and letting the lit cancer stick burn off on my wrist, backside, stomach, anywhere coverable was just another afternoon for me. Watching me struggle and cry. He would say every time to man up and take it.

"Just leave then! Just- get out! Stay with me." He sighed, running his hands through his hair.

"I cant." I mumbled and pulled back from the embrace, joshes hands still rested on my hips.

"Why not?" Josh scoffed, bringing his hands to his sides. Cold air rushed in the empty space between us. I instantly felt lonely.

"He's hurting you. You miss out on so much because of him. Things you enjoy. I haven't seen you paint in months and why, because he says it's dumb? You love your art!" He carded his hands his hair, a fidget Ive noticed him do, something he does when he's angry or confused.

"where would i be without him?" I mumbled back. Josh turned his back and leaned against the kitchen island.

"So much happier." Josh finalized. I knew what he said was right. It was no secrets I wanted to leave.

"Try to remember yourself before this." Josh spun around and knocked a metal pot onto the floor while doing so.

I flinched. Josh turned around, an annoyed angry look on his face. He picked up the pan and stepped forward with it. Presumably to put it on the hook behind me.

He stalked toward me like everyone i knew had done before. He had the same look, it was different, yet the same. I stepped back in fear, tripping over a stray shoe. Tears welled up in my eyes. Where would I go after this?

I fell ungraciously, The clatter of pots and pans hanging off the side wall clanked and one fell, landing with a round metallic sound.

I felt the pain as I landed. Terrified, I covered my face waiting for something to be thrown at me. I couldn't tell with Monty what would happen, nor could I with josh. I would just have to wait and see.

I closed my eyes and waited for the arrival of something. It was always out of anger, Josh never done anything like what Monty has done before.

A bad day at work was always my fault.  A hurtful Facebook message, a credit card declining, family issues, denied sex. The list goes on. It really never seems to end. Anything to provoke him just set him off completely.

And Josh looked angry. I don't know what i did exactly. It must have been bad though because josh looks mad and sad at the same time. Almost lost. He's never mad. I shut my eyes tightly and awaited the worst.

Nothing came. I opened my clenched eyes after a few moments. The bubblegum haired man stood a few feet away from me, looking absolutely horrified.

"Fuck, Tyler." He breathed out holding his hand to his heart.

I saw the tears spring to his eyes.
"Fucking hell- Tyler. I'm sorry" he said, sounding at loss for better words.

I know josh isn't like M, I know not all guys are, I still stayed far enough away just in case.

"Did you think i was-" he started balling and sniffing.

"Please don't do this to yourself. Stay the week. Stay the month. Stay forever just- just don't go." He pleaded wiping away tears. He squeezed me into a hug and cried into my shoulder.

"Stay with me, we can split rent and-" he cried.

"We can work at that fucking music place you love so much. We can go to the library. Anything but him. Everything can be normal again." He got on his knees and helped me up. I was hesitant to take his hand. I wiped away my tears.

Josh cried and bunched up my shirt, pulling me into a hug and cradling my head in his arms.

"Promise you'll think about it?" He asked.

"I promise."
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QOTD: Red haired josh or Yellow haired josh?
AOTD: for me red tbh
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