Just another girl . Mithzan X reader

I just wrote the last chapter, I don't think I want to write books any more. I am going to say this on my main channel. Nobody reads them or likes them, I give up. I've been told o have grey hairs growing from stress and I do have a lot on my mind but GREY HAIRS That's insane.
I have been thinking about and true-fully I cried from having pressure I won't let anyone fully know how much pressure I feels on me nor will they know.
This isn't something to grab people's attention and make them worry, I just wanted to tell you that I don't won't to write books anymore...but... at the same time I do it's crazy. I love writing books it makes me feel at home doing what makes me feel special but when I look at the views I'm getting. I just don't want to write, if I was as good of I writer in writing stories as I am feelings maybe I wouldn't be so bad as a writer

Also if your thinking 'but PQ! You have 1.21k views on this' well your wrong. That's all together I have gone below 80 views at this point and it's sad, because my writing improves every chapter and it will help me with school work A LOT! At least I think it does. I hope it does.
I am a failure at life I have no talents except from messing things up I was hoping writing could be something of a talent.
Everywhere I turn I feel like am being judge for being me and making people laugh but that's not a talent. If I keep trying to be great I'm going to make a fool of myself, and what's worse my sisters (I have two younger ones) copy me what if they end up down the same path as me? Following my foot steps doing the same thing as me, but then, friends change you as well they help you become...you... chose them wisely. The next thing is that, well I feel like I'm not me online, I switch between personalities that aren't mine on the internet when I was 'Mysterious author ' was the real me, when I spoke to you guys it me speaking not anyone else. I might just write a book on my main account about my life and that could be the only book I write from now on, it will show you the stress I go through every minute of the hour, hour of the day, day of the month, month of the year. 

This is the first time I have truly expressed my feelings through writing. Take them seriously and use them as a message chose what you do confidently.

-Mysterious author and Pizza_Queen_10

Word count altogether 469 of my blaber u put up with thank you. Now 484!